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this is my rant about my boyfriend and how much i love him and yadda yadda yadda..its really long and if you have problems, i guess thats your deal? dont read it? whatever. hes MY boyfriend. and this is MY journal. sense a trend? good.
I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND MORE THAN YOU. =P
he is seriously the best guy ever. im so happy he came up to see me this weekend. it was a shock and ..just wow..im still in awe that we pulled it off. we spent 24 hours together..just the two of us. no one else.. the whole time, i sat there and had to tell myself that this was REALLY him..that it wasnt a dream and that i was actually with my baby again. my daddy let bobby drive his car around so we could go out which is insane bc my daddy doesnt let anyone drive his car bc its his "baby". its kinda crazy how much my family loves this kid. it makes me soo happy, bc he is sooo amazing to me and im so glad that everyone in my family is so supportive of this relationship. theyre always willing to drive me to him or to do anything in order to let me see him which is always good bc lord knows i miss him more than anything when hes not around. this whole naval academy thing really tears me apart and though im really supportive of him going there, and he knows that, i just hate that hes all the way in maryland and that the school is soo strict. idk, i guess its a test for our relationship. and so far, were kicking ass. =] =] =]
well, it all started i think wednesday night when he text me and said he had some interesting news. i thought it was gunna be something like not even involving me..just random news about things happening at the school from hell. when he finally told me, he said that he got an overnight and that he was gunna TRY and come home THAT SAME SATURDAY. since he said try of course i didnt get my hopes up bc i didnt want to get them shot down just incase the whole situation didnt work. friday night, he told me he was like 95% sure that he was still coming..so i got excited..but of course there was still that 5% holding me back. even saturday morning there were some complications about rides and stuff like that..but 11:00 hits and he tells me hes on his way to the train station and he'll be here around 2:30. oh..em..gee. i spazzed. i literally had to find things to do to keep me occupied bc i was jumping up and down..i tried to watch a movie..didnt work..i tried to clean my room.. failed.. finally, my daddy came to get me to go look at cars..SCORE. we sat for a little while there and by the time we were done there, it was time to pick up my baby. oh my god, the ride to the station was i think the LONGEST ride ever. NO JOKE. when we finally got there, we waited about 5 minutes for the train to pull up and finally i saw him..in his amazing new WINTER uniform ((hahaha)) that makes him look..just..wow. haha - so yeah, we collected the package..and then it was off to my casa. when we got back to the house, everyone exchanged hugs..as i said, my whole family LOVES the kid. anthony, my younger stepbrother, ran down the stairs and into bobbys arms. it was the cutest thing ever. i showed him my sweet 16 dress and he said he liked it which makes me happy. =] then i gave him our 8 month anniversary card that i was supposed to mail to him since our anniversary was thursday..but since he came, i guess i didnt have to. haha anyways, we chilled around, and talked, ate dinner and did what we do best =] when we were done, we were planning on renting movies but something happened and we decided to go see the new movie WAITING with dane cook, ryan reynolds, justin long, and andy milinokis. it was HILARIOUS. oh my god, i laughed sooo hard the whole movie.. definitly a lot of sexual humor and male AND female frontal nudity. haha oh goodness, we got outta there..rented some movies..went home, watched the movies, ate some oreos, talked to dave and just whatever. me and bobby were planning on staying up all night..but we kinda fell asleep for an hour which is okay..bc its only an hour but oh well. we woke up, chilled around, ate pancakes, and then got ready. we drove to the station and bobbys train was supposed to leave at 1:22 - but it ended up not leaving till almost 2 so i got another 40 minutes free with my baby which was nice. leaving him was hard..i started crying kinda in front of him which i hate to do bc i like to be strong for him and be the one to tell him its gunna be okay and that things are gunna get better. it pretty much sucked major bc i couldnt even tell him that it was gunna be okay when i wasnt okay myself. i guess theres nothing i can do now. i miss him a lot already but i get to see him in 31 days which isnt bad compared to what weve had to go thru and its prob gunna go fast bc in those 31 one days, im goin to florida for 8 and mine and alicias sweet 16 is in there and..yeah. i just cant wait to see him again.. i made sure that he knows how much i love him before he left bc i want him to know that hes on my mind constantly and that he makes me soo happy, even though i may not show it all the time. he honestly is the best boyfriend ever, though he may not think so, and im soo lucky to have such an amazing boyfriend and best friend. i can tell him anything and he'll never judge me and he knows how to make me smile..and knows exactly what to say to make the pain go away. hes amazing and im never letting him go.
baby, im soo happy you came to visit me.. just to be able to see you again was crazy and i cant wait to be able to have another one of our sleepovers again. =] youre THE best, gorgeous. i love you more than anything ♥♥♥ 2/20/05 always =]
I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND MORE THAN YOU. =P
he is seriously the best guy ever. im so happy he came up to see me this weekend. it was a shock and ..just wow..im still in awe that we pulled it off. we spent 24 hours together..just the two of us. no one else.. the whole time, i sat there and had to tell myself that this was REALLY him..that it wasnt a dream and that i was actually with my baby again. my daddy let bobby drive his car around so we could go out which is insane bc my daddy doesnt let anyone drive his car bc its his "baby". its kinda crazy how much my family loves this kid. it makes me soo happy, bc he is sooo amazing to me and im so glad that everyone in my family is so supportive of this relationship. theyre always willing to drive me to him or to do anything in order to let me see him which is always good bc lord knows i miss him more than anything when hes not around. this whole naval academy thing really tears me apart and though im really supportive of him going there, and he knows that, i just hate that hes all the way in maryland and that the school is soo strict. idk, i guess its a test for our relationship. and so far, were kicking ass. =] =] =]
well, it all started i think wednesday night when he text me and said he had some interesting news. i thought it was gunna be something like not even involving me..just random news about things happening at the school from hell. when he finally told me, he said that he got an overnight and that he was gunna TRY and come home THAT SAME SATURDAY. since he said try of course i didnt get my hopes up bc i didnt want to get them shot down just incase the whole situation didnt work. friday night, he told me he was like 95% sure that he was still coming..so i got excited..but of course there was still that 5% holding me back. even saturday morning there were some complications about rides and stuff like that..but 11:00 hits and he tells me hes on his way to the train station and he'll be here around 2:30. oh..em..gee. i spazzed. i literally had to find things to do to keep me occupied bc i was jumping up and down..i tried to watch a movie..didnt work..i tried to clean my room.. failed.. finally, my daddy came to get me to go look at cars..SCORE. we sat for a little while there and by the time we were done there, it was time to pick up my baby. oh my god, the ride to the station was i think the LONGEST ride ever. NO JOKE. when we finally got there, we waited about 5 minutes for the train to pull up and finally i saw him..in his amazing new WINTER uniform ((hahaha)) that makes him look..just..wow. haha - so yeah, we collected the package..and then it was off to my casa. when we got back to the house, everyone exchanged hugs..as i said, my whole family LOVES the kid. anthony, my younger stepbrother, ran down the stairs and into bobbys arms. it was the cutest thing ever. i showed him my sweet 16 dress and he said he liked it which makes me happy. =] then i gave him our 8 month anniversary card that i was supposed to mail to him since our anniversary was thursday..but since he came, i guess i didnt have to. haha anyways, we chilled around, and talked, ate dinner and did what we do best =] when we were done, we were planning on renting movies but something happened and we decided to go see the new movie WAITING with dane cook, ryan reynolds, justin long, and andy milinokis. it was HILARIOUS. oh my god, i laughed sooo hard the whole movie.. definitly a lot of sexual humor and male AND female frontal nudity. haha oh goodness, we got outta there..rented some movies..went home, watched the movies, ate some oreos, talked to dave and just whatever. me and bobby were planning on staying up all night..but we kinda fell asleep for an hour which is okay..bc its only an hour but oh well. we woke up, chilled around, ate pancakes, and then got ready. we drove to the station and bobbys train was supposed to leave at 1:22 - but it ended up not leaving till almost 2 so i got another 40 minutes free with my baby which was nice. leaving him was hard..i started crying kinda in front of him which i hate to do bc i like to be strong for him and be the one to tell him its gunna be okay and that things are gunna get better. it pretty much sucked major bc i couldnt even tell him that it was gunna be okay when i wasnt okay myself. i guess theres nothing i can do now. i miss him a lot already but i get to see him in 31 days which isnt bad compared to what weve had to go thru and its prob gunna go fast bc in those 31 one days, im goin to florida for 8 and mine and alicias sweet 16 is in there and..yeah. i just cant wait to see him again.. i made sure that he knows how much i love him before he left bc i want him to know that hes on my mind constantly and that he makes me soo happy, even though i may not show it all the time. he honestly is the best boyfriend ever, though he may not think so, and im soo lucky to have such an amazing boyfriend and best friend. i can tell him anything and he'll never judge me and he knows how to make me smile..and knows exactly what to say to make the pain go away. hes amazing and im never letting him go.
baby, im soo happy you came to visit me.. just to be able to see you again was crazy and i cant wait to be able to have another one of our sleepovers again. =] youre THE best, gorgeous. i love you more than anything ♥♥♥ 2/20/05 always =]