Well, I have decided that fear, pain, and stress can do terrible things... I am stretched so thin, and I don't have all that much to hold on to. I am trying. God knows I am. I just wish I could know... Then maybe I wouldn't try so hard to protect myself ( Read more... )

Well a lot has happened to me... After coming back from Christmas, I met a girl named Jennifer. She seemed great, and since things between me and Cynthia seemed like they had died, I decided that maybe I'll just start talking to this girl. Well it got serious, and it was like that for around 3 weeks, when she decided that for whatever reason, we ( Read more... )

Well, I am back at Bragg... I am actually relieved that I am back. I just have to get back into a routine of some sort. I missed Cynthia, and I can't wait to see her. I just wish things between us were more established. I wish I could see her whenever I want. I guess I'm just too needy. This weekend is her birthday, and I am broke as a joke. I ( Read more... )

Well, I came home for the holidays. I got a new truck, and I feel very alone. Nothing new with the loneliness, but seeing Melissa has me feeling more vulnerable than would usually be the case. I almost hate her for seeming to care so little about me when she claimed to miss me so much. Of course the fact that she will most likely never see me again ( Read more... )

Well, I wanted to see Cynthia before I went home for Christmas, and tonight I got my wish. She just got out of the hospital and is supposedly over her "super virus". We met at our usual rendezvous spot, and then drove to get Chinese food. We were at the Chinese place for a while, just talking and joking around. I enjoyed every moment of it. I ( Read more... )

As the music played, my dead body slumped into the crowd. No one even noticed; they were all so loud. So there I lay, trampled and dead. You can't even recognize me; they've crushed my head. You never even knew me at all. To you I was just a person, though not very tall. I was a giant in my mind, but you couldn't see. You never got to know me ( Read more... )

Well, today was interesting. The inspection went well, but it took forever standing out there just waiting. The arms room didn't do as well as we needed it to in the inspection, but oh well ( Read more... )

Well, Happy Thanksgiving... Enjoy it with your loved ones. I got to enjoy it with nameless faces, here at wonderful Fort Bragg. There are more and more rumors on the street about the Third Brigade Combat Team (which I am part of) getting deployed to go to Iraq early next year. Therefore I will enjoy what I can when I can. My folks are moving ( Read more... )

Well, today is the day. The next 4 years is being held in the balance, and I feel suprisingly relaxed about it ( Read more... )

Well yesterda yI felt bummed. I guess b/c my weekend away from ehre went by too fast. Erica Definitely picked up on my vibe, which is weird b/c not many ppl can. SHe's so cool... Anyways my brother turns 21 Friday and I'm gonna miss it, which sucks. I can't wait till the new year. Hopes are up, and I'm feeling vulnerable, but that's okay. You ( Read more... )