wow i cant believe it friday night and i actually went to the movies with friends! for like the first time ever!! and i was just being myself! im actually pretty excited about all the new things im going thruogh but i still cant believe that i dont have i phone yet.. and thank god iam still single..its actually kinda comforting..i went out with ( Read more... )

today has been another day in life and seemed to stumble upon another life lesson...i guess its true not to follow someone else's word than the source itself.. tomorrow i got mock trial and boy am i nervous! man i couldnt even focus on my character because my mind was focused on something else.. i cant wait untill i get through the test life has ( Read more... )

things were going normal as usual between me and brian, sunday night...well untill i got him to open up and tell me something that still resounds in my head.. he liked his friend megan..liked..y do i get the feeling he still does..i really dont no what to say..all i no is that it hurts and i feel like im being used to help him forget her. not cuz ( Read more... )

olivia, dear sister, how much i pity you..your first love was a lie.. you just being used..angelo truly didnt give a shit about you..all those years you spent on him was a waste..maybe thats why you are the way you are..yet you sit there . i dont get olivia! if i were going through that much pain i would try to reach out to someone!! yet you run to ( Read more... )

omg!! im so fucking excited i could fucking scream!! AAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!! UGH I NEED TO GO OUT BAD! i no its thursday but fuck i cant help it ! man its sux though cuz im bored of everything right now!! except my friends and my room but everything else is dullsville..no ofense to them but i need something exciting and exasperating.. i think for the ( Read more... )

wel my brother carin has come into town and it wasnt the visit i quite expected i guess for the first time i know what its like to have a brother,, at first he got into the cruel argument with my sister luz but last night iwent to the movies with hom and my sis olivia and i fell asleep on his shoulder for the first time... for some strange reason i ( Read more... )

its been four years now..since the last time i saw my brother carin..i remember exactly how i acted towards him... distant..for some reason i had the hardest time forgiving him for being the cause of having to go to foster care..if only he hadnt lied i would have had the one thing that life no time couldnt, cant make up for..my childhood..the ( Read more... )

sadly the year 2004 has come to an automatic end.. i learned so much in this year. for the first time i stood up for my heart . i left a relationship where there was no affection. i guess i tested myself to see how i was in a relationship. i had my relationship at 15.also, in this year i turned 16. i learned the truth behind chris evans and saw him ( Read more... )

ok remember how i said i wasnt feeling the whole physical thing well we talked and i guess theres nothing wrong with liking someone and being affectionate.. i just really like the guy and i dont want him to want me just for that..so on new years eve on the stroke i lost my virginity to him.. not !!! i kissed and and it was the most awkward kiss we ( Read more... )