clocking out at 4:20 today. tequilla on my breath and a head full of acid- finding it hard to merely be. fucking bored and angry constantly.. always losing the things i need.

my new lj user name is luxuide.

"end of line."

ima get wasted n shit.. like... hang out in some chat room all day er something.. try calling chase n shit.. call my sean. gotta talk teh sean like...... soon er something. i like... am happyish teday... yeah! um.. yeah? yeah.. errr.... something.

bleh!

"I am the face of piss and shit and sugaaahh.."

::scratches forehead:: i hate people who think they know ( Read more... )

i want BLOOD.. brains.. with my bare feet, i want to stomp her FUCKING intestines. i want to swallow all of her teeth, hair and nails as to demolish any sign of her identity. i want her FUCKING dead and i want my wild, raw hands and fangs to follow through with the proceedings. i want to crush her precious things between my thighs, oh.. the ( Read more... )

I have an overwhelming ache to get high... higher than I've ever been.

No one really understands. And... that's not okay ( Read more... )

ima git rilly wayztid wif kwistol tedae... well.. maybe not wif krystal but.. ima git rilly wayztid ( Read more... )

i didn't have the best of nights tonight. everything felt so wrong with sean where i wanted so badly for it all to feel right. ::sigh:: ...

i left him earlier than i wanted to..

sean... ah, god...

i hate this. teday will be.... ::sigh:: hopefully good since Krystal is coming over early.. i'm gonna go lay in bed and listen to Robert Miles ( Read more... )

seventeen seconds
by robert smith

time slips away
and the light begins to fade
and everything is quiet now
feeling is gone
and the picture disappears
and everything is cold now
the dream had to end
the wish never came true
and the girl
starts to sing

seventeen seconds
a measure of life
seventeen seconds

to my sean.

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"sometimes i think of you.. when i'm.. alone."

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