lithium
Title: Lithium
Pairing: JongKey
Rating: PG-15
Genre: Angst... horror-ish?
Summary: Key's guilty feelings overwhelm him. Has parts of lyrics from Lithium by Evanescence included...
Warning: mention of character death, and somewhat crazy key..
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Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without.
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow
Oh, but God I wanna let it go
Kibum sat up suddenly, having another nightmare. About him. About Jonghyun. The boy he used to love.
"He's gone!" Key yelled, and the silence that responded back to him wasn't the response he wanted.
I love you too Kim Kibum. Don't forget-
'What is there to forget?" This voice inside of him, he knew. He knew that Jonghyun was back. No, he's gone. He's gone. He repeated over and over again. I got rid of him.
Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone.
"I thought I got rid of you!" Key yelled, nearly screaming. He remembered the blade he'd driven into Jonghyun, that ended the heartbeats, the dreaming, a rude awakening-
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.
He was on his knees now, breathing hard. This feeling, he didn't need it. He grabbed his switchblade from he bedside table, heart pounding, as the overwhelming feeling took over.
Never wanted it to be so cold.
"I didn't need you!" Tears were pouring out now, the tears he had held back when he ended the life of the person who he loved. He never loved him. He just wanted him to be gone, to never see his face again- yet he was still here. He's not here. He's not anywhere, don't worry. He assured himself, but it didn't help.
Here in the darkness I know myself.
He threw the switchblade, somewhere into the darkness of his room, and heard the clatter of it fall. He was alone.
Can't break free until I let it go, let me go.
"Jonghyun, you fucking asshole!" Where, where did this voice come from? Reminiscences from the past. Snippets of happy memories before, before something took over. Was it all in his head? It's me.
Darling, I forgive you after all.
Sobs broke out from him, piercing the aching silence. He couldn't keep it in anymore.
And in the end I guess I had to fall.
"Stop- don't leave...Jonghyun!" Key cried out. There was nothing. Nobody's there.
Always find my place among the ashes.
And then Key couldn't take it anymore. He broke down completely. He was driven mad by the feeling of guilt, the piercing in his heart everytime he heard someone mention Jonghyun. I did it all. I ended him. There was no murderer except for me.
I'm gonna let it go.
A/N: Something I wrote when listening to this song. It's not that great....but yeah. I just had an urge to write and this just happened.
Pairing: JongKey
Rating: PG-15
Genre: Angst... horror-ish?
Summary: Key's guilty feelings overwhelm him. Has parts of lyrics from Lithium by Evanescence included...
Warning: mention of character death, and somewhat crazy key..
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Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without.
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow
Oh, but God I wanna let it go
Kibum sat up suddenly, having another nightmare. About him. About Jonghyun. The boy he used to love.
"He's gone!" Key yelled, and the silence that responded back to him wasn't the response he wanted.
I love you too Kim Kibum. Don't forget-
'What is there to forget?" This voice inside of him, he knew. He knew that Jonghyun was back. No, he's gone. He's gone. He repeated over and over again. I got rid of him.
Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone.
"I thought I got rid of you!" Key yelled, nearly screaming. He remembered the blade he'd driven into Jonghyun, that ended the heartbeats, the dreaming, a rude awakening-
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.
He was on his knees now, breathing hard. This feeling, he didn't need it. He grabbed his switchblade from he bedside table, heart pounding, as the overwhelming feeling took over.
Never wanted it to be so cold.
"I didn't need you!" Tears were pouring out now, the tears he had held back when he ended the life of the person who he loved. He never loved him. He just wanted him to be gone, to never see his face again- yet he was still here. He's not here. He's not anywhere, don't worry. He assured himself, but it didn't help.
Here in the darkness I know myself.
He threw the switchblade, somewhere into the darkness of his room, and heard the clatter of it fall. He was alone.
Can't break free until I let it go, let me go.
"Jonghyun, you fucking asshole!" Where, where did this voice come from? Reminiscences from the past. Snippets of happy memories before, before something took over. Was it all in his head? It's me.
Darling, I forgive you after all.
Sobs broke out from him, piercing the aching silence. He couldn't keep it in anymore.
And in the end I guess I had to fall.
"Stop- don't leave...Jonghyun!" Key cried out. There was nothing. Nobody's there.
Always find my place among the ashes.
And then Key couldn't take it anymore. He broke down completely. He was driven mad by the feeling of guilt, the piercing in his heart everytime he heard someone mention Jonghyun. I did it all. I ended him. There was no murderer except for me.
I'm gonna let it go.
A/N: Something I wrote when listening to this song. It's not that great....but yeah. I just had an urge to write and this just happened.