My partner and I finished our project for Fashion without Fabric today, it's fantastic. Going to be hanging out with the family all Saturday...I don't think they realize how little there really is to do around here. I'm excited nevertheless though, I really want to see our project on the runway. I think it's really original, I can't wait.

It's done, I'm great, perhaps even use of such a word as free is warranted. Maybe even apathetic. I can now review those events of the past as simply that, events, with no attachment at all. Things that merely happened, like the rest of my life. For awhile I was wondering when our friendship would be back to normal, and then it hit me. This is ( Read more... )

Something caved and it broadsided me this morning without warning, and it really hurt. I don't know what caused it, but I really wish it'd just go away. Hopefully it was/is just one final hoorah before it's gone for good.

I've also rediscovered Coldplay, and they're still just as amazing as a remember them.

I was overcome with a certain kind of...peace I guess is the way to describe it, yesterday. And suddenly I felt like I should be thanking her. I mean really, she must have forseen problems I did not and acted accordingly. She chose the lesser of two evils. I don't want to know how much this would have hurt if, months down the line, she realized ( Read more... )

Going back to school tomorrow. Mixed emotions there. I have a lot of work to get done once I get back, but there's...unfinished business here if I may. It's going to be nice to get back to school I think, get into a normal routine again and forget about things. Funny thing is, that's what spring break was supposed to be right? Ha.

I need reasons. I need an answer to "why," because I know, "It doesn't feel right," isn't what really did it for her. It obviously "felt right" at some point, I had to have done something wrong. She couldn't look me in the eyes the entire time. She chose to stare at the hood of her car instead. She could have at least had the courage to look ( Read more... )

I stopped trying to bandage it and just let it bleed this morning.

Now that I've cauterized the wounds I think I'm going to be okay.

There are no tears. Only shaking.

I thought I was safe.
I opened up, jumped in head first, let it all go.
I wanted to think I was safe.
But...I think I knew what was coming...

And the iron casing shuts once more.

So it would seem like I'm always going to need to take the initiative. Alright, good to know ( Read more... )

Laura just drove what will be a total of 160 miles to see me and the other guys. She has to work at 8 in the morning tomorrow. I know it's supposed to be the guy who does that, but not having a car here kind of complicates things.

I feel like the most fortunate guy on Earth.