just so everyone knows...i feel like death. i want to curl up in a little ball and die. i will be specific now. i have a sinus infection; i puke all day and night; i have a headache; im dizzy NON STOP ALL DAY; im anxious and nervous all the time; im angry and depressed all the time; im 10 days LESS along then i originally thought; ive only ( Read more... )

buenos dias. i feel nautious. and i dont like it. i want to rip out someones appendix and eat it for lunch. glah. i hate this feeling dammit! i feel it constantly. i have to be eating ALL THE TIME so i dont vomit. its ridiculous. i think i have gained a few pounds. my pants fit differently so....i dont think its much. maybe 5 lbs. if ( Read more... )

i'm not sure when my last entry was, and im too lazy right now to click a few buttons and find out. so i will just write away...not knowing if i am repeating anything i have already mentioned. jadynn's birthday was saturday. we had a good time. she went to this place called libby lu. a very cute little store in the mall for little girls where ( Read more... )

blah. startin to feel the morning sickness. well technically its more like all day sickness. sucks. i hate this part. what an awful feeling. but oh well. im 7 weeks today. its weird. ppl say that you love your kids the same. its hard to imagine that. cause im almost afraid ill love jadynn more. cause shes been my one and only for four ( Read more... )

So...i guess its time to update the world with my latest news. despite my last entry which was full of annoyance.....i am going to be giving birth to child #2 in early october. crazy. yes i know. but im okay and this will be an exciting time. victor is still gonna stay moved out for a while until we can get our finances straightened out. then ( Read more... )

so i asked victor to move out. we just decided it would be better for both of us. to be honest i am pretty happy with the decision. i guess im tired of playing mommy to a 23 year old kid. and i guess i want more freedom. not in the sense of wanting to go out or anything...but like...if i want to stay at my parents for a long time...i can. i ( Read more... )

its funny how our opinions change when we are in a situation. we trash talk certain people or their actions...then find ourselves behaving the way we once criticized. why does this happen? there is no excuse for behaving badly. atleast no good ones. yet....we still do it. maybe its the lure of excitement in being rebelious. or maybe its ( Read more... )

2007. damn...every year i think the same thing. i cant believe its 200_. seems like time just evaporates. its gone. my daughter is going to be 4 years old next month. can it really be possible? it doesnt seem like it. but i guess so. shes so great. this kid. shes funny. and shes totally smart. sometimes it pisses me off. the other day ( Read more... )

so....we're almost to christmas....and still no shopping. i have no clue what to get anyone. i hate this. i never know what to get. and plus i have no money...so how am i supposed to get anything!??! grr....i know what i want for christmas but i wont get it. its part of my secret. muahaha. hum...what else.....me and victor will have been ( Read more... )

i think im the only one who still writes in here. thats how it seems anyway. its nice for me tho. cause i sit at work sometimes stressed and overwhelmed. not from the work...just for my life in general. i think things are looking up tho. me and my guy have been swell. no fighting....getting along great. i love him ( Read more... )