sry when i said ashamed i meant that i was feeling that because my family was. I dont mean this in a bad way but i choose them... and i want them to not think of me as mental (quoted from my dad) or have a sick disorder (quoted from my mom). I cant live with myself unhappy and i would be completely unhappy by having to lie to them just to satify myself... and even if i didnt lie i would feel horrible and feel like i am betraying them because this is not what they want. Even though my mom said she would still love me... i have never in my life seen that face on her as she looked at me and i cant live like that. Didnt mean to hurt you... really wish it could have worked too... but it cant and it wont... and that is my choice. I am so sorry again that you are hurt. xoxo Sam
honestly... it doesnt really hurt anymore.. i realize that this is how it is.. im over it... but i mean.... "just to saticfy yourself"... who else are you supposed to saticfy? you shouldnt do things so ur family wont have a heart attack, eventually it becomes YOUR life... it has to... and right now, this is YOUR life... not theirs.. im not saying anything about you and i, im just talking about you... your life is not what they want, its what you want... if that is what you want though.. if you would rather lie to yourself than your family, then i guess that is your choice.. im just saying as a friend that i think that your priorities are wrong, and i would say that no matter who you were going to date... its just how i feel people should live, your family should accept you for who you are.. im not saying that i know exactly who you are or something, only you know that... but if you want to do something that doesnt seem right to your parents... but you feel its right, sometimes parents are wrong.. alot of the times they are wrong...
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i love you.
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I am so sorry again that you are hurt.
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but i mean.... "just to saticfy yourself"... who else are you supposed to saticfy? you shouldnt do things so ur family wont have a heart attack, eventually it becomes YOUR life... it has to... and right now, this is YOUR life... not theirs.. im not saying anything about you and i, im just talking about you... your life is not what they want, its what you want...
if that is what you want though.. if you would rather lie to yourself than your family, then i guess that is your choice.. im just saying as a friend that i think that your priorities are wrong, and i would say that no matter who you were going to date... its just how i feel people should live, your family should accept you for who you are.. im not saying that i know exactly who you are or something, only you know that... but if you want to do something that doesnt seem right to your parents... but you feel its right, sometimes parents are wrong.. alot of the times they are wrong...
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