Day 5, Drowining Sorrows, original m/f, PG-13
Title: Drowning Sorrows
Author: joanne_c
Fandom: Original
Pairing/character: m/f
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: This is mine, all out of my own head.
Note: Based on the song Silver Threads And Golden Needles
I remember when he used to hold me and kiss me... when he'd tell me he loved me and the moon would shine down on us. It sometimes looked like the moon had a halo around it... a halo of love, he'd say.
I should've known that was too good to be true.
But I married him. I was poor, he was rich, he said he loved me. Seemed like a good reason to get married.
He only married me to stop his parents getting suspicious about the dozens of women he was already fucking.
I almost think I'd prefer it if he had one who he loved, who he couldn't be with for whatever reason.
Might make living in this lonely mansion worthwhile, you know?
I think I've cried in every damn room in this place.
He tells me I have his money and his name, and he keeps saying if I'm lucky I'll have his children someday.
I'm not sure I want that or not. Someone to love me would be good. But do I really want to bring children into this mess?
He's out, again, at some bar, picking up a girl who makes me when I met him look sophisticated. I know the type he goes for. Doesn't promise them a thing any more, because he's married.
I don't drink any more. I did for a while, trying to drown the sadness, but I figured out that if I didn't sto? I might end up an alcoholic. Last thing I needed - and not only because he doesn't need another sympathy card to play.
I sleep alone now. He sometimes goes to the trouble of coming in and trying to make a baby. If he even gets it up any more with me? He shoots his load over me.
I guess it's okay, I go take a shower and sleep in another room. And if I'm feeling frustrated - can't think why that would make me feel it... I have my hand and some fabulous toys that bring me off better than he ever did.
We can't stay like this forever, I know. Something will give.
I just hope it'll be soon enough for me to make a life on my own.
Author: joanne_c
Fandom: Original
Pairing/character: m/f
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: This is mine, all out of my own head.
Note: Based on the song Silver Threads And Golden Needles
I remember when he used to hold me and kiss me... when he'd tell me he loved me and the moon would shine down on us. It sometimes looked like the moon had a halo around it... a halo of love, he'd say.
I should've known that was too good to be true.
But I married him. I was poor, he was rich, he said he loved me. Seemed like a good reason to get married.
He only married me to stop his parents getting suspicious about the dozens of women he was already fucking.
I almost think I'd prefer it if he had one who he loved, who he couldn't be with for whatever reason.
Might make living in this lonely mansion worthwhile, you know?
I think I've cried in every damn room in this place.
He tells me I have his money and his name, and he keeps saying if I'm lucky I'll have his children someday.
I'm not sure I want that or not. Someone to love me would be good. But do I really want to bring children into this mess?
He's out, again, at some bar, picking up a girl who makes me when I met him look sophisticated. I know the type he goes for. Doesn't promise them a thing any more, because he's married.
I don't drink any more. I did for a while, trying to drown the sadness, but I figured out that if I didn't sto? I might end up an alcoholic. Last thing I needed - and not only because he doesn't need another sympathy card to play.
I sleep alone now. He sometimes goes to the trouble of coming in and trying to make a baby. If he even gets it up any more with me? He shoots his load over me.
I guess it's okay, I go take a shower and sleep in another room. And if I'm feeling frustrated - can't think why that would make me feel it... I have my hand and some fabulous toys that bring me off better than he ever did.
We can't stay like this forever, I know. Something will give.
I just hope it'll be soon enough for me to make a life on my own.