"someday i know someone will look into my eyes and say hellooo your my very special one."

i started to feel like myself again today half way to work while listening to slow gherkin in the car.

please god send me a sign.

dear self
cheer up.
wear your seat belt. toss away that death wish.
stop pretending your life is a music video
stop being so dissatisfied your just wasting time.
choose your words more carefully. think before you talk.
you might be dying but its ok. really stop thinking about that.
life is for the taking. now go!

i hit the road, practically leaving her for dead. sorry mom.

i still remember it clearly, last night i dreamt i was shot through the chest with a machine gun, a bullet shoots me through the heart. my heart explodes. i'm somehow aware of the pattern of bullet holes across my chest. i know i'll be dead soon. when i wake up, i am still alive.

yeah so i fucked my car ( ALREADY) and i fucked up plans with a lot people, and plans i had for myself. now i dont have any money... not for the things i had planed to do this summer like the mass art summer program i had been saving for for so long. because no i have to spend it to fix the car. sucks ( Read more... )

im tired of boston, i need to stay here and finish school. I shouldnt have ever left boston, because now i dont want to be here anymore.

suck it up!... okay i will.
tomorrow school starts again.

hey im home whee ( Read more... )

im leaving for cleveland tonight.. from cleveland i will be going home ( Read more... )