i've been trying to set up this weekend's trip to vail for weeks now, since before i even went back to arizona to visit. with everything that has been going on and all the stress i am going through thanks to school, work, and my internship, i need this vacation even though it is only for one night. now katie's parents are saying that dani's sister ( Read more... )

i dreamed about you last night. how does it make you feel to know that i miss you with every thread that keeps my heart stitched together? my pillow still smells like you. five days was not enough, though it was long enough for you to begin calling this place home. please come home. i'm so afraid that in one month's time, you will forget all of ( Read more... )

i'm home. the flight was amazing. traveling is amazing. walking into my parents' open arms is amazing. seeing my sister and brother in law is amazing. seeing my dog is amazing. but best of all, my niece jordan is here and at four months old, she's already prettier than i could ever be.

life, at this exact moment, is so perfect.

honest to god, i didn't sleep a wink last night. i had my routine morning chat with keven and then promptly at 730am i went to the bank and made a deposit. my measly $16 check. i also broke down and deposited my california fund ... all $100 of it. i've been saving here and there for a couple of months now and i really wanted to not have to use it, ( Read more... )

so what is the deal with me having insomnia again? my doctor told me i would grow out of it but of course, he lied. just like he lied about accutane getting rid of my acne. now my face breaks out still, and my hair is falling out. he told me that after i was done with my bloodwork each month i wouldn't be afraid of needles. what a fucking joke. all ( Read more... )

fucking legends. fucking ghosts. so my life is a movie, right? that's been established in the past week. yeah, you think you've been scared in your life? let me tell you a story that will blow your sorry ass right out of the water ( Read more... )

he makes it so painfully obvious. really, they all do. i am like the new girl in an established crowd and no matter how true that may be, it's still weird to look around and realize that my every move is being considered by the kids around me. i am a focal point for conversation ( Read more... )

it took me two text messages, one phone call, and a five minute AIM conversation to remember that life really isn't fair, even for teenage boys ( Read more... )

so i am sitting in the auraria library again. it's a beautiful day outside, a bit cloudy. 80 degrees or so. breezy ( Read more... )

sometimes, i allow myself to get in a little too deep in situations that aren't even my own to begin with. i live 900 miles away from my true home and even though i wish i was still involved in the lives of the people that have meant the world to me for so long, i know that technically, i'm not. some of the people more than likely do not even miss ( Read more... )