they're just jealous because we're young and in love...
i'm starting to dislike hating myself so much.
in fact, i'm begining to like myself.
funny how the world works huh?
anyway, i have a list here, of things i want to tell everyone...
Branden:
thank you for being my best friend. i'm glad that i have a friend who cares and tries to help me. one who comes to the hospital to see my brother, and not just for ME, but for my brother. that meant alot to me, and i know it meant the world to my brother.
Steve:
hah. i don't even know where to start. i will miss the days of cheeze-its and gummi bears in mr. bailey's class; slacking, doing nothing, and still passing with flying colors. giving me hugs because i was having boy problems, even when you were in your ROTC uniform and could've gotten in trouble. attacking you and painting you toenails in north carolina. sleeping in psychology class, and cutting english every now and then to go to mcdonalds. you rock, and you've always been an awesome friend.
Tom Harmon:
i miss you. i miss hanging out; you skating to my house with your doofy hat with all the stickers underneath, and then pulling them off and throwing them in the street. you getting all mad because i stole your hat and you hated your curly hair.
CJ:
you're so fucking wicked awesome. i love you, like one of my best friends. you totally encouraged me and matt and now look where matt and i are, thank you so much cj. you are rad. i love hanging out at your house. and i think it's fun to watch you guys shoot the shit out of each other with pellet guns. that special girl will come along; don't worry, no more "psst! heather how do you break up with someone so they'll go away?!"
Milkmark:
you rock so hardcore! hah! you are so fun mark! i will never forget your line of sugar at grottos and the "eating the napkin" picture! i love your random, out of nowhere comments. CAPTAIN NINTENDO UNDERPANTS!!!!! hehe.
Elyse:
thank you for being there for me through the ups and downs. it's amazing how at first we really didn't even like each other, but now we are like best friends. i'm pretty fuckin glad i gave a you a chance. you are so awesome and by far one of the most fun people to hang out with. i will never forget our nights at brian's house; waking up the next morning looking like shit, obviously hung over. or the hung-over work meetings. haha! we always have that one kick ass party! remember the very unforgettable..."THAT FRIDAY!". lmao. it will never be "remember that party back when...?" it will always be..."omg that friday!!!" complete with beads. hah. i love you so freakin much!
Courtney:
you're so awesome. thank you for being my friend. thank you for listening to me when i'm depressed and i have no one to talk to, even though i know it must get old...it's wonderful to know that i have a friend who will just listen to me when i'm upset versus trying to fix everything, cuz ya know, sometimes ya just need to talk. i am always here for you. never forget blowpops and ringpops for life! lol!
Brian T:
you're so amazing. you've always been cool as shit to me. you never questioned the fact that i was branden's ex and everything, you just accepted me as a friend. you rock so much. even though you're always high...lol. you are a really sweet guy and i'm so glad that i have friends like you and branden that love me so much. that means everything!
Justine:
i miss our fun times. i miss you. i can't wait to hang out again, once we both aren't so busy. we need more times like the me, you, and morgan mall spree. drenched from head to toe. my, how plans change lol. first candace's, then italtian festival, but oh no its raining so we run into the mall completely soaked. "HEY WILL YOU TAKE OUR PICTURES?!" i still have those of me, you, and morgan in strawbridges! i love you!
last but certainly not least...
Matty D:
what can i say? i love you. you literally changed me for the better. i gave up everything i did that was wrong (drinking, smoking, etc.) for you, because i wanted to be a better person for you. i wanted so much to be the perfect girl for you. i've liked you since the moment i laid eyes on you, standing in the concession stand at work, goofing off, and making me laugh more than i have ever laughed in my entire life. when i fell in love with you, it was the most incredible thing ever. you're everything to me. you help me feel comfortable in my own skin, something i have never been able to accomplish until YOU believed in me. i love you sweetheart. you are my world. thank you for loving me, thank you for showing me that i am so much more than i ever thought i could be. i will stand on my rooftop and shout it for everyone to hear... I LOVE YOU MATTY D! ♥ ♥
goodnight everyone!!!!