Head still fucking hurts, and tonight proves that all guys are shitty. Goin to bed if these meds kick in.

Here comes surgery. Blah.

Hah... Writing a lot. Woke up to a thought.... And that was the most heartbreaking dream and thought that can be. It goes right back to what I said earlier.

I hate not sharing what I think. I hate how I feel. I hate how again... The tears come. He has no idea just how far....

I hate not sharing what I think. I hate how I feel.

Just fucking laughing. Shaking my head. Im a fucking idiot.for even trying.

Fucking already. :( can't even understand, can't even get it. Fuck.

Amd its starting. Bleh. Sleeeeeep.....

300 am and still havent slept. Weird night. Blah to the blah.

I wish the brain could produce pictures to give to people with the emotion your heart feels.