Just found something that could make things REALLY fun with Tony :) teehee

I find a lot of myself, or my life, in Friends. The lobster episode, and the last one with Rachel breaking up with Ross for cheating, the way he acted was like me at times in a way. But in the end, hes my Ross. I hope I'm a weird piece of the puzzle in his life (and I know he likes puzzles), and im his Rachel. Or lobster. Whatever it may be. ( Read more... )

In a better mood. Just happy. :) Ill just wait to do what I wanted. It will be worth it :)

Teehee.... Broncos it is :) ;)

All I can say is, thank you, for right now. Despite feeling pretty crappy... There is just two things to be thankful for. Goodnight, journal.

You know... I was really happy about something tonight, ecstatic even, now I'm just kind of meh. It's okay, I'll let him decide when to come to me. I have some reading to do in the meantime. I don't really want to go out anyways. I had a full paycheck waiting for one thing, but now, blah. Guess it will have to wait. I just really, really really ( Read more... )

I really hate waking up to mornings like this.

Still hurts. Oh well. Happy but there is that 5% meh-ness.

Well, can't say being apart from Tony is the total reason I sleep like crap. Just woke up drenched in sweat, thought I heard people yelling. Stupid meds. Stupid dreams. I wish I was beside him again... Good night but I already miss it. Blah. Miss him, as I have.

Damn this its hard and it sucks. :( I can't say what I want... Almost did... Just sucks. Proud of him, but tonight reaffirmed all of what I know and wish to say. Sucks. Sucks. Sucks.