question:

does it make you a coward if you kill yourself?

edit: i'm curious, not suicidal.

can you miss something you never had to begin with?

how can i look like i've gotten FATTER. but infact i have lost weight? because i thoguht i had gained weight i looked at the scale and i have lost a few kgs? i'm about 46-47kg now.. whats with that? i dont think i'm being paranoid by thinking i look like i've gotten fatter, its not just a girl thing... well. whatever..

so i have holiday now, summer holiday till the end of feb. i really dont have much to do but i'm looking for a job -_ ( Read more... )

i've been lazy with my lj again, sort of cant be bothered updating. but maybe i will more soon. in a week my exams will be over and i'll be on summer holidays. all the way till march i'll have free time, even though i'll look for a job i'll still have lots of free time. time to be a geek and play games and read manga and watch anime >_ ( Read more... )

happy birthday to me :o
i am 21 now.

angry.

i dont want to die. i dont really care about dying. but i dont want to live. so what do i do.

you know its weird but i feel like i have noone to talk to anymore :O i know i can talk to a lot of you who will read this and think 'what? she can talk to me whenever she likes' but .. its just a weird feeling >_> so much has changed with a lot of people, i guess stuffs changed with me too. just blah -__- i really can't talk to anyone anymore and ( Read more... )

everyone list one thing i should do. anything at all.