I have been more or less blaming ben's insecurities for the new developments in our relationship, but I think it's time to take a look at mine ( Read more... )

well now that i'm not crying (at the moment) I feel that I can write a proper post, that fills you guys in a bit more. I dont really know whats going on right now... I talked to him again, but we didnt get any close to an answer. I was just able to say how I felt, and how I thought we should fix things. I dont know what he will decide though. He ( Read more... )

I am a mess right now. My face is streaked with tears and my eyes are so swelled I look Asian. Sav, i could be your cousin! last night ben and i... broke up? i say that with a question mark, because we left it so... i dont know. i was in tears, sobbing, and he was just hugging me... i cant even write about it, i cant breateh when i think about not ( Read more... )

yes, i know how sad it seems that i wish i had a textbook to read, but its true. Right about now I would welcome a chapter or two on abnormal pyschology. i'm just that bored. I came home from my night class and ate a sausage that emma had cooked for me, and watched sex and the city, which is all that I do these days since my classes start so late. ( Read more... )

well, the end is here. Classes start tomorrow, and i'm definitely not ready. i have spent the last 5 days drinking and its finally caught up with me. i feel disgusting. i have managed to go to the gym twice already, which is sort of impressive, considering how much drinking I have done recently. every night every bar has been packed. lets see now ( Read more... )

hello all.. No, i'm not dead ( Read more... )

so its been 2 days of my separated status. and so far, not so bad... i went to the gym, i locked myself in my room and in study rooms to study pysch. sometimes i went very crazy and wrote him about pysch. and then tonight we started chatting about what this break meant.. dangerous territory. and i said 'i guess i'm celebrating our not-so ( Read more... )

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY HALSEMAAAN!!!!!!

we've returned! alive! (well, just barely.) The weekend started off iffy, as lauren was running late and kyle wanted to kill her... but then things were starting to pikc up (heh no pun intended...) and kyle was speeding and we got pulled over at 156km/h :/ the cop wasnt too forgiving and thus kyle must return to the dear town of Morrisburg for a ( Read more... )

hehere i am... at home... its weird being back. everything feels really out of place. this computer for example, feels clunky and old, and too white, since the new one is flat-screened and black. and then my room...thats a whole different story. its empty and sparse and there are weird pictures up from around my house to make it look less empty. ( Read more... )