I know that it has been a long time since I wrote, and there has been some reason for that. Chad and I started fighting alot about the amount of time that I spent on livejournal. He felt like I was creating an entire world/network of friends that had nothing to do with him, and he felt like that was replacing, and ultimately threatening where he ( Read more... )

ok, real update ( Read more... )

this won't be a long post.... because I don't know what to say ( Read more... )

I know that I've been updating little, and commenting less.... and when I do update it is negative and depressing. My life has been demanding a lot of me lately, and I haven't had the energy to come up with anything positive ( Read more... )

I hate this ( Read more... )

All too often, I feel undervalued and ignored in this relationship. I'm beginning to seriously consider the possibility that Chad and I were not ever meant to be, if there is even something or someone who determines fate. I know that my homonal state tends to determine how I feel about this relationship, and that when I'm approaching my cycle, I am ( Read more... )

I know, I know.... update ( Read more... )

I know that I haven't really posted in a long time...... and it's coming, after midterms, I promise ( Read more... )

I. am. so. sorry ( Read more... )

I've proved a point. Last night, Chad and I started into a conversation that STARTED as non-judgemental, and open. Just talking about what we required of each other in this relationship, what wasn't being fulfilled, what we felt had to be worked on, etc. It was good. Chad told me that he thought I was very secretive with him...... and he was right ( Read more... )