dreams and stuff

[mllemeowy]

I woke up early yesterday (Wednesday) morning - 4am - to a dream in which Jason was very prevalent. I don't remember what it was. It was freaky. Later after sleeping a bit more I woke up to a dream in which I got in my car at the 7G's after running a bit of tubing from the exhaust to the window and duck taping everything together nice and

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[gorey_girl]

im really sorry things are so messed up. i dont have anything helpful to say. arent you afraid of dying?

what about a kitten?

all i can say's i allowed myself to be dicked around by a really hot girl and now i feel so disappointed in myself that im terrified of dating anyone. um. that really doesnt relate, does it.

jason and allison are here with me in chicago. they are sweet. i took them to a hip record store and i think it made them happy.

you'll be okay, alright?

sara

[mllemeowy]

Thanks Sara.

I am sorry things are fucked up as well but shit happens. I'm not really that afraid of dying - I've been depressed for a very long time (22 or 23 years) so I am somewhat used to the feelings of hopelessness and they typically pass relatively quickly and I know what to do if they don't.

I am going to get 2 kittens as soon as they are ready to go. They were born I think 2 weeks ago - maybe 3 - so in another few weeks they'll be mine. That makes me happy. The Orangeina is so sad w/out the Meower it'll be nice for her to have friends.

That sucks about the hot girl. I know how it is. I have a date tonight w/Aaron Ridenour - he used to fill in as a projectionist here occasionally. I don't know if you remember him or not. Probably not. Anyway - I hope I have a good time.

Say Hi to Jason and Allison for me...

[jakemercadante]

I have a deal with depression too, that it keeps me grounded in reality so that I may swing to epiphany constantly and still have it mean something.