Testimony <3
For the past two years, I have been lost.
I was raised in a Christian family. I studied in a Christian school since nursery. All in all, I grew up as a Christian. But the past two years or so of my life, I became separated from Christ. Honestly, speaking, I only say my family is Christian because of my grandmother and aunties who have led me into knowing Christ, but my dad is a non-practicing Christian and my mom is a Catholic.
When I was in Grade 1, I accepted Christ as my Savior on February 18, 1998. That is a very, very long time ago, and I should be very firm in my faith now. But I guess I was too young then. I was just a kid, interested in getting that Yellow Book with a lot of pictures. I remember hesitating when the counselor asked me what I was doing in that room. But, being a kid, I believed that saying the prayer is all that needs to be done. If it weren't for my school, I wouldn't have known the many Bible stories that I know now.
As I grew older, I was spiritually stagnant. When I was 11, that was the time that I finally decided to re-affirm my faith in God. I opened my heart and, this time, made sure that it was for real. I had quite a good relationship with God up until around 4th year high school, but I don't think it was still the best.
Here comes college. First year college, my faith was still strong. I proudly declared that I was a Christian! And I rejoiced at every instance that I meet another Christian! But then came my 2nd and 3rd years. I don't know whether it was because I was too busy with my studies or with my orgs or with my friends but I really went a different way than God. I still prayed, yes, but the personal connection just wasn't there. Then it hit me. Is this what I want? I started to question a lot of things then and I became very emotional and easily depressed. I began to think things through. In the end, my decision was to try having a better relationship with God - to try it one more time. And this time, it worked. Because I think that this time, I have seen both sides of the spectrum, unlike before. I really am happier with God.
When I was working at Grace one summer, the teachers had a conversation about their spiritual slumps. Most, if not all of them, had one. During that time, I haven't had one yet. And I was pretty confident that I won't. That confidence probably brought me down.
I'm starting over from scratch. I'm rebuilding my faith and this time, I won't be in a hurry. I want to make this personal relationship with Christ last.
Romans 5:8 "While we were yet sinners, Christ died for us."
I know that some people might think I'm crazy or something, but I don't really care. I'm happy and content with my growing relationship with God ♥
I was raised in a Christian family. I studied in a Christian school since nursery. All in all, I grew up as a Christian. But the past two years or so of my life, I became separated from Christ. Honestly, speaking, I only say my family is Christian because of my grandmother and aunties who have led me into knowing Christ, but my dad is a non-practicing Christian and my mom is a Catholic.
When I was in Grade 1, I accepted Christ as my Savior on February 18, 1998. That is a very, very long time ago, and I should be very firm in my faith now. But I guess I was too young then. I was just a kid, interested in getting that Yellow Book with a lot of pictures. I remember hesitating when the counselor asked me what I was doing in that room. But, being a kid, I believed that saying the prayer is all that needs to be done. If it weren't for my school, I wouldn't have known the many Bible stories that I know now.
As I grew older, I was spiritually stagnant. When I was 11, that was the time that I finally decided to re-affirm my faith in God. I opened my heart and, this time, made sure that it was for real. I had quite a good relationship with God up until around 4th year high school, but I don't think it was still the best.
Here comes college. First year college, my faith was still strong. I proudly declared that I was a Christian! And I rejoiced at every instance that I meet another Christian! But then came my 2nd and 3rd years. I don't know whether it was because I was too busy with my studies or with my orgs or with my friends but I really went a different way than God. I still prayed, yes, but the personal connection just wasn't there. Then it hit me. Is this what I want? I started to question a lot of things then and I became very emotional and easily depressed. I began to think things through. In the end, my decision was to try having a better relationship with God - to try it one more time. And this time, it worked. Because I think that this time, I have seen both sides of the spectrum, unlike before. I really am happier with God.
When I was working at Grace one summer, the teachers had a conversation about their spiritual slumps. Most, if not all of them, had one. During that time, I haven't had one yet. And I was pretty confident that I won't. That confidence probably brought me down.
I'm starting over from scratch. I'm rebuilding my faith and this time, I won't be in a hurry. I want to make this personal relationship with Christ last.
Romans 5:8 "While we were yet sinners, Christ died for us."
I know that some people might think I'm crazy or something, but I don't really care. I'm happy and content with my growing relationship with God ♥