if heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied, illuminate the nose on their vacancy signs, if theres no one beside you when your soul embarks, then i'll follow you into the dark...

fear is the heart of of love, and I never went back...
-death cab for cutie

maybe i shouldnt go back, what if there is nothing left afterward?

Today starts week number 3 of me being sick. what a waste of christmas vacation.

Since when is giving 400% too much? Some people like people who are organized, efficient, and professional. I dont know what 'trying too hard' means. I guess I am maybe just average and shouldnt try hard to be anything I am not or cant do? I dont understand. All I feel right now is depressed that I have a bad personality and people see me is ( Read more... )

You Are a Chocolate Martini
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if you are in love, why cant you shut off all feelings that you have for other people. or at least you should be able to turn on the thing that tells you if these feelings are important. mine is definitely not working. i dont know if i even have that thing. maybe i can sell my mixed feelings and confusion on ebay, and buy some sense.

They finally told me how much my recital grant is- $215. I applied for $700. Shea got $200. She applied for $650 or so. Boo on them. Big, loud, mean boooooooo!

he makes me feel like i am worth celebrating over. i will die if i lose him.

Yay! Im glad its over.

my dress rehearsal went pretty well. So now I am not so much scared, but excited. Just as long as my face stays semi-tanned. damn spray tan.

Wow, things are getting really stressful. I am memorized 95% at least and am tecnically ready, but still nervous. Plus one of my teachers moved our midterm up to tuesday and i have a geology midterm on thursday. I feel like i am going to die. I thought things would calm way down after the recital, i guess they are going to get worse. On a better ( Read more... )