Interactions with Guys
I'm bored, so I'm just going to write about guys. Some things are out of order, but it's generally chronological. I've never had a boyfriend and don't have one now. This post is not strictly about crushes though.
I grew up with my cousin everyday until I was about 10 years old, meaning I went to their house everyday after school. All those cousins were male, so I grew up liking and playing lots of video games and stuff. I did not interact with any of my girl cousins because there weren't many around, so I talked to guys in school since I wasn't as comfortable with girls. I was always teased in elementary school, probably because I rarely talked to anyone. Girls would tease me about liking this guy that always had holes in his pants (in the crotch or backside -__-) and I would always be insulted since I never liked him and didn't want to be associated with him. I did have a close female friend though and everyone thought we were sisters. In kindergarten, these two guys wanted to be my friend and one asked me who was the better one...while bending my fingers backward... One grew up to be a jerk and the other I have no idea. I did have a crush on a guy and told his friend not to tell him and he did. My crush ended up sitting next to me and making perverted jokes... One guy was a perverted bastard.
In one of my classes, this guy decided I was his girlfriend and would always call me "baby" in class. I never met or talked to him before, so it was kind of weird. He would say hi everyday, ask for help, and ask about my opinion on his haircut. I never liked him, so the next year, he moved onto do the same with another girl. I had my first real crush in 7th grade. He and my other friend could always mess around during class. I even asked one of my teachers about him and my teacher told me that when guys like a girl, they like to tease her a lot. I got my hopes up high, but, one day, I saw him waiting for his girlfriend after school and that crushed me. The song Reason by Hoobastank never fails to remind me of him since I saw a Hoobastank picture in his binder. I didn't like any other guy after that until 10th grade, but it was very short-lived as I lost interest. I was attracted to his looks and he was very nice to walk me to class, but when I talked to him, it was boring since he didn't talk much (at this time, I talked more than in elementary school). Then, the next year, I sat next to this guy and we got along really well. We were able to talk so easily and I kind of liked him, but it never developed into a crush. We only had one class together and we didn't have the same group of friends.
In my first year, I thought there were a lot more cute guys in university since there are a lot more people and there are international students. I never liked anyone or talked to anyone though until I joined a club. The guy I liked was very friendly, outgoing, and popular. I was very naive. He would always flirt with me and say sweet words and I believed him. One event for the club, he hung around me the whole time, held my hand and talked to me on the way back to the dorms, and he even walked me back and put his jacket on my shoulders on that cold night. I was excited because I thought he liked me and my friends thought it, too. He was very open and sensitive. He had a nice, happy personality. I would get so happy and excited whenever we talked and I received texts from him. At first, I thought I was happy to have such a good friend, but I started to like him more and more. I would talk to my friends about him. Me and him would talk a lot, but, one day, he totally cut off all contact and ignored all my messages. Maybe he got wary because I blew off some invitations to hang out, but I was extremely sick for two weeks. I got angry at him and found out that he acted the same way to other girls besides me. For months, even though he didn't talk to me, I really liked him a lot and would try to contact him, but no luck. I would complain to my friend and be sad. I would always check to see if there were any messages, but none came and I was crushed, angry, and sad. We would often see each other on the way to class, but after he cut contact, I never ever saw him. It was like he was avoiding me. Then, after a month, we saw each other on the way to class and he came up and talked to me like nothing was wrong. He though I was angry at him even though he was the one that ignored me. After that, I kept a distance from him and we started talking again, but I stopped believing in his sweet talk. Even now, I still like him. Without You by David Guetta ft. Usher always reminds me of him (we listened to it together before) and it hurts when I hear it and think about him. He was perhaps my first love, but I just consider it a really intense crush.
My dream guy would be someone like T.O.P. from Big Bang. I don't want him as a boyfriend because that would be totally delusional. Basically, handsome, deep voice, tall, looks cool, but is actually very playful, outgoing, and adorable (so cliche but whatever ;P). I love guys with a deep, sexy voice.
I grew up with my cousin everyday until I was about 10 years old, meaning I went to their house everyday after school. All those cousins were male, so I grew up liking and playing lots of video games and stuff. I did not interact with any of my girl cousins because there weren't many around, so I talked to guys in school since I wasn't as comfortable with girls. I was always teased in elementary school, probably because I rarely talked to anyone. Girls would tease me about liking this guy that always had holes in his pants (in the crotch or backside -__-) and I would always be insulted since I never liked him and didn't want to be associated with him. I did have a close female friend though and everyone thought we were sisters. In kindergarten, these two guys wanted to be my friend and one asked me who was the better one...while bending my fingers backward... One grew up to be a jerk and the other I have no idea. I did have a crush on a guy and told his friend not to tell him and he did. My crush ended up sitting next to me and making perverted jokes... One guy was a perverted bastard.
In one of my classes, this guy decided I was his girlfriend and would always call me "baby" in class. I never met or talked to him before, so it was kind of weird. He would say hi everyday, ask for help, and ask about my opinion on his haircut. I never liked him, so the next year, he moved onto do the same with another girl. I had my first real crush in 7th grade. He and my other friend could always mess around during class. I even asked one of my teachers about him and my teacher told me that when guys like a girl, they like to tease her a lot. I got my hopes up high, but, one day, I saw him waiting for his girlfriend after school and that crushed me. The song Reason by Hoobastank never fails to remind me of him since I saw a Hoobastank picture in his binder. I didn't like any other guy after that until 10th grade, but it was very short-lived as I lost interest. I was attracted to his looks and he was very nice to walk me to class, but when I talked to him, it was boring since he didn't talk much (at this time, I talked more than in elementary school). Then, the next year, I sat next to this guy and we got along really well. We were able to talk so easily and I kind of liked him, but it never developed into a crush. We only had one class together and we didn't have the same group of friends.
In my first year, I thought there were a lot more cute guys in university since there are a lot more people and there are international students. I never liked anyone or talked to anyone though until I joined a club. The guy I liked was very friendly, outgoing, and popular. I was very naive. He would always flirt with me and say sweet words and I believed him. One event for the club, he hung around me the whole time, held my hand and talked to me on the way back to the dorms, and he even walked me back and put his jacket on my shoulders on that cold night. I was excited because I thought he liked me and my friends thought it, too. He was very open and sensitive. He had a nice, happy personality. I would get so happy and excited whenever we talked and I received texts from him. At first, I thought I was happy to have such a good friend, but I started to like him more and more. I would talk to my friends about him. Me and him would talk a lot, but, one day, he totally cut off all contact and ignored all my messages. Maybe he got wary because I blew off some invitations to hang out, but I was extremely sick for two weeks. I got angry at him and found out that he acted the same way to other girls besides me. For months, even though he didn't talk to me, I really liked him a lot and would try to contact him, but no luck. I would complain to my friend and be sad. I would always check to see if there were any messages, but none came and I was crushed, angry, and sad. We would often see each other on the way to class, but after he cut contact, I never ever saw him. It was like he was avoiding me. Then, after a month, we saw each other on the way to class and he came up and talked to me like nothing was wrong. He though I was angry at him even though he was the one that ignored me. After that, I kept a distance from him and we started talking again, but I stopped believing in his sweet talk. Even now, I still like him. Without You by David Guetta ft. Usher always reminds me of him (we listened to it together before) and it hurts when I hear it and think about him. He was perhaps my first love, but I just consider it a really intense crush.
My dream guy would be someone like T.O.P. from Big Bang. I don't want him as a boyfriend because that would be totally delusional. Basically, handsome, deep voice, tall, looks cool, but is actually very playful, outgoing, and adorable (so cliche but whatever ;P). I love guys with a deep, sexy voice.