i've been a real slacker i def haven't updated this thing enough this summer. It's funny too cause i check what other people write all the time, I just never write myself. Anyways pretty much summer has been work/work/gf/and more work/oh and family stuff. Kyra has been real sick and in the hospital, i feel so bad for my baby she's only 3 she ( Read more... )

Ok I know I should write happy things more often but when I'm happy I'm enjoying it therefore I'm too busy to write. However I found out tonight how much of a gambling problem I truly have. I won't even say how much money I wasted which I don't have and that's not even the worst part of the whole story. It was like once I started I couldn't stop ( Read more... )

Well it's been a shitty week out so that doesn't help my work schedule. Gotta love the restaurant business. Not much has been going on looking for a second job and just chillin mostly. I have all my grades now for this semester and luckily I did well in all of my classes but that one to balance out my g.p.a. Don't really have much to say just ( Read more... )

Ok so i thought things were going well this semester not so much. As of right now i have a D in analysis of modern english, he says he'll change it after i make up my quizzes, well i do well on them of course. I knew i wasn't going to do great in that class but i thought i was pulling a c. I don't know i'm just frusterated I feel like that one ( Read more... )

Well how do we begin this owe so not so lovely entry. ( Yes I realize that the last sentence is not grammatically correct.) So yeah I've been studying for my analysis of modern english final for the last 48 hrs and it's all rushing through my brain. So I awake revived and ready to study and ace this final. then I check my mail and find out that my ( Read more... )

Ok so I know I haven't written lately but i've been busy. Anyways on a happy note I've just been exceptionally happy for the last few months. Never in my life have I had a constant smile and positive outlook in my life and for the first time I just feel good. Don't get me wrong I still have my stressors but doesn't everybody, but overall i'm just ( Read more... )

I haven't written in what feels like an eternity. I read everyone else's entries all the time but i haven't been writing my own and I appoligize for that. I just have been so busy and writing hasn't been on the top of my priority list lately. Anyways semester update, school ok, hopefully i'll pull out an ok g.p.a. Girls well they suck, and I haven' ( Read more... )

Alright so were switching my meds once again. I'm not sure if this is a good thing or not. I don't like new things as many of you know, I fear change in a sense, I guess it's one of my bigger fears. So anyways my other one's aren't working completely and i'm frusterated so the change is needed but i'm still scared. When I was kid it was one med ( Read more... )

Ok so it's been a long weekend....valentine's was good thanks to Aaron who is the best friend any girl could have. Dinner and Roses and massage stuff not bad. Sat was ok, but then on Sunday it all became real. My mother did the whole just in case speech and went over all sorts of details about if she died which I didn't need to hear about. p.s ( Read more... )

I don't know but lately I have felt like my old self, which isn't a good thing,and I really don't think my meds are working even with upgrading them. I feel moody and sad I don't know. Nothing has been going right lately and I try to keep a positive attitude and then everyone just throws the past in my face. I've tried to go out and be more/fun in ( Read more... )