30 day photo challenge...Day 11!
...i keep forgetting to do this.
the battle for being content with my body...
i hate having to think about everything i eat and when i eat something i shouldnt, im guilt-ridden.
this is my christmas 2009. at my hugest...239 lbs.
...so glad none of you had to see me like that...but now im still 213 (yes ive gained 7lbs since then but no morrrre!) and am still very unhappy, though i am still finding clothes that wasnt able to get into *then* but still tried...ugh.
heres me 33lbs lighter after 6 months of diet coaching... :)
i was to the point where i wore size 18 jeans. im not winto a 15 or 16 (depending on the style/brand) which im content with. thank God i feel normal....ish. but i still have a lot to lose. ideally i would like to atleast get to 175. then part of the battle will be over but i *really* wana get to 160. thats about all the smaller i would want to be. as long as i can wear a 13 ill be content :)
it takes me to do it though :)
and thats what i hate. fat me.
the battle for being content with my body...
i hate having to think about everything i eat and when i eat something i shouldnt, im guilt-ridden.
this is my christmas 2009. at my hugest...239 lbs.
...so glad none of you had to see me like that...but now im still 213 (yes ive gained 7lbs since then but no morrrre!) and am still very unhappy, though i am still finding clothes that wasnt able to get into *then* but still tried...ugh.
heres me 33lbs lighter after 6 months of diet coaching... :)
i was to the point where i wore size 18 jeans. im not winto a 15 or 16 (depending on the style/brand) which im content with. thank God i feel normal....ish. but i still have a lot to lose. ideally i would like to atleast get to 175. then part of the battle will be over but i *really* wana get to 160. thats about all the smaller i would want to be. as long as i can wear a 13 ill be content :)
it takes me to do it though :)
and thats what i hate. fat me.