Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears ...

[moffatt]

... until the good Lord takes you awayI have this entry mapped out in my head somehow. From start to finish I had this entry planned out, mapped out to the slightest minute detail. But the cursor blinks at me, mocking me. For years I have hidden myself behind a mask; a facade for everyone to see. Everything that I've ever done was for the benefit

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[natalie_b]

No matter what you've done in the past, bad or good, no matter what you think about yourself, you are a good person. You are an amazing friend, an amazing father, an amazing musician, no one can deny that. You probably need counselling on top of the help you can have from your friends, from their support and love, but you'll get out of it all stronger.

I love you, you're my bestfriend and I'll always be near if you ever need me. Hold your head straight and breathe life, I swear you will be alright eventually. <3

[moffatt]

Thank you for this. I need to hear things like this, not necessarily because I'm an egotist, but because my self esteem is so low and I think so less of myself that I need to hear that I have people who are willing to help me. Thank you.

And I love you; see and this is why. I know I'll be okay eventually; its the getting there thats the hardest part.

[shawn_everett]

If Jon and I getting arrested isn't any indication on how much we give a shit about you, kid, you really do need help. Christ, Moffatt, if you needed this much help, you could've fucking said something, anything to us and we'dve done it. I can't really speak for Jon right now, because I've given up on trying to do that but I can say that from my standpoint, I love you and give a hell of alot of a shit about you.

And you are going to get help if we all have to drag your silly ass to do it. Because more than we'll admit, we want you around. Love you, kid.

[moffatt]

I know, Shawn; but you know how I am. You have to push me to get me to do just about anything. I know you two give a shit. And is it okay to say that no one has ever been arrested in my defense? LOL. I thank you. And I'll get better. Eventually.

[taliofarim]

I hate sitting so idly by, and watching you helplessly. If I could do something other than sit there and comfort you as the tears fall, I would. If we could trade places, I would gladly take yours, just so you could be the clueless idiot for once and have a little fun.

I do love you, and I don't know if I've ever let it slip before, but I do. I love how strong you are, even if you don't believe it. I love that you're making an effort to turn your life around, and winning the battle, from what I've seen, anyway. And I will be there to support you in anything you decide. I'll be there to give you what you need, everything I can give.

[moffatt]

To love is not idle.

I don't believe theres a word for what you're doing for me right now; if ther was, it is slipping my mind at the moment. You are not being helpless, you are taking it away a little by little. Finding the pieces, putting the puzzle back together. Does it make sense?

And no, you've never let it slip that you loved me. But I like the way it sounds. Je t'aime.

[jon_gant]

I'm glad you could talk to me about these things last night. I know I'm a jackass most of the time but I do care about you and I want you to get better more than anything. We need you, man.

[moffatt]

I thank you for helping me address these things; because if you didn't push, I wouldn't be admitting them even now. And I'm going to try. I know I've said that before, but I mean it this time.

[jon_gant]

It's my job to push you, don't worry.

[marion_raven]

I remember you taking me out there and sharing that with me. I wish you could have shared the rest of this with me. I wish for a lot of things concerning you and me, but I guess I should just say I hope you get better. There are people who need you to.

[moffatt]

As I just told Jon, I know I say that I will try alot; but I mean it this time. More than ever because I realise that I'm slipping. I've got to get my life in order; and I know I should've shared these things with you. But you know how I am ... you have to push.

[marion_raven]

Yeah, I guess so.

[moffatt]

Its not just you I didn't share it with. I didn't share it with anyone. Its just not easy to share emotions like that.