Punished
He told me that I could not orgasm today, because He was not satisfied with my assignment and I had to make changes to it. He had told me that I could play with myself, but with no orgasm. I didn't have the willpower to stop. I needed the release. And I suppose part of me thought that since He is so far away, maybe I could get away with it. I felt too guilty though, and told Him what I did. He said the punishment will be severe, in order to set "the standard" for my disobedience. I'm a little scared and worried about what the punishment will be. Actually, it's hard to stop thinking about it. But I do feel bad for disappointing Him so soon into this arrangement. I'm actually surprised at how badly I feel. I think that it must be in my nature to submit to Him. I only wonder how much I am willing to sumbit? I can set all the technical boundaries and limits I want... but what it comes down to is what He asks of me. Because I am pretty sure that I will do anything He asks.
I Love You.
I Love You.