allow me to get deep for a minute...

[mojomarla]

right now is such a time of growth for me. it's INSANE IN THE MEMBRANE. part of me is happy-eager-excited to know i'm growing so much, but the fact of the matter is, the growing pains are killin' me. i mean, really. owwwwwaround mid to late '02, i figured out a BUNCH of crap about myself with the help of a few wonderful, supportive friends. like,

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[nefas]

i think i need to also not allow my "kindness' to consume me, simply because i'm so fearful that if i don't behave like my mom - selfess, compassionate, loyal as FUCK - then, by default, i have become my father.

at least you've got the right idea. it's not just one or the other. you have to find a nice balance in order to save your own sanity. *hug*

yesh

[mojomarla]

reminds me of what dr. king called "the paralysis of analysis"... it's like i know where i need to be headed, but getting there is obviously the real struggle here.

[folkyboy]

a wise crazy black women said something to me once:

Do you know what the definition of a friend is? Fry-till the End.

i never forgot this loony yet honest advice.

[ex_antemeri]

Scarily enough, I understand completely.

It's it strange to realise that you're growing and changing?

eh

[mojomarla]

not strange...i mean, i grow everyday. but growth SPURTS can be alarming - albeit exciting - because there's such a rush to get through it...(due to the growing pains aspect of it...)