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Sparkle
{ Chapter Five }
Kyuhyun's POV
I clenched my fist tightly under the table. I tried to control my expression into a relaxed one, even though inside I would really want to smash the plates and mock. But no, I don’t want any dramas. I know I wouldn’t win after all. Noona throws me a worried look and silently tells me to calm down as she reached for my hand. She gives it a gentle squeeze. I looked down onto the fancy plate with leftovers and then sighed slowly. I looked up and tried to look anywhere but at my father who is munching onto food and looking at me confidently. I saw my mom looking down at her food as she cuts the steak, somehow looking disturbingly sad.
The large family portrait with golden frame that were hung elegantly on the wall catch my sight. I stared at it for a moment. What a happy family we are back then; when mom still have the shining sparkles on her face, when dad is the caring one, when noona- No. Noona haven’t change. She didn’t change at all; never will.
But mom does. Dad does.
After I finished the elementary school, I discovered that I wanted to sing more than playing games. Then I started to take piano classes seriously. They felt proud, because finally, other than just gaming I’ve finally decided to play piano. But it didn’t last long. After I’ve won quite a lot of prizes in competitions, and also performing at Churches, I decided to tell them that I wanted to sing more than anything. They were supportive at first because my studies were okay. Then dad got this promotion to level up his standard, and then, he had changed; Mom too. She just follows everything dad says, since dad was never the caring one anymore.
She never really cuts in whatever dad were saying- she never really talks anything with dad. Because obviously dad is the one who had all the controls. Well, mom never really cared. All she does was making sure we went to school, does our homework and studies well. And that’s that.
Dad always came home late and could barely have time to check how we are doing at school. Tap that; he never asked. We could barely see him either. There are no more family activities; even dinner could be counted by fingers every month. Mom became more the silent type as dad didn’t treat her well at all. He also cuts my and Noona’s activities that involved singing.
He cuts our dreams and forced us to study so that we could be like him.
Honestly speaking, I don’t ever wanted to be like him at all. I don’t want to ignore my wife, my family. I won’t ignore. Even if I’m busy or I have a lot of work to do, I would never ignore them. They’re someone I love, they’re my life. If not for them, what is worth living for?
Hah, yeah, dad, what you worth living for?
I realized now that we have finished our dinner. I stood up, bowing around 45 degree and slowly pushes the chair back a little too slightly so I could get comfortable way out. I looked up at my father who is now wiping his lips gently with the handkerchief.
“I dismiss,” I bowed once again and was ready to get the hell out from there.
“Kyu Hyun,”
I heard the sound of chair creaks along with dad’s querulous tone. I stopped abruptly and swing swiftly to stare at him. I raised an eyebrow at him who is now standing firmly. He looked up straight at me with strong expression.
“Do well,”
And he walks off the room, leaving me confused. Mom followed after with her caring eyes staring at me for a moment and then at Noona before she went off. Noona elegantly wipes her lips and stood up gracefully before tapping my shoulders lightly. I looked at her; I could felt hot tears drawing lines on my cheeks. I couldn’t stand this anymore. She understand me so well that then she hugs me lightly, tapping her palm gently on my back, breathing slowly on my ear. I held her closer.
“Why does it hurt so much,”
Is a statement.
゜・。・゜・゜・。・゜・゜・。・゜・゜・。・゜・゜・。・゜・゜・。・゜
[TBC]
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ps// School opens on 3rd Jan, so yeah.