I just woke up to thunder and lightning and light rain outside.
                            I LOVE this kind of weather.

So of course, I had to put on my favorite rainy day/night movie, "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind."

This weather is making me so happy.
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Reading old LJ posts makes me sad and lonesome.
None of those people care about me anymore.
I've burned so many bridges, and I regret 95% of them.
I'd say "I'm sorry", but I doubt it'd make a difference/do any good.

.....I wish, I wish, I wish.

And waking up from an intense Jason Schwartzman dream didn't help me today.

I feel awful lonesome.
Bitch, bitch ( Read more... )

(I wrote this last year)

Spending time with the rain

I strain my hears to hear the rain
I savor every drop
A hat covers my clock, misplaced but I don’t mind
I’m staying up late tonight, spending time with the rain
It has been too long, I was drying up

My gums have been bleeding steadily
And that’s not the only thing
I try to keep it under my skin, but it ( Read more... )

Blah, meh, and pffffffffffffffffffffft.

I finally finally FINALLY after waiting 3ish months, got my copy of Hot Rod back, one of my all time favorite movies. One of those movies that I can watch over and over and now get sick of. I fucking ADORE it. I'm realllly happy about getting it back.
I didn't let the dude barrow it on purpose, I accidentaly left it at his house when I was drunk ( Read more... )

I wrote this last year, when people were bugging me about my sleeping. (They still do ( Read more... )

I don’t have many certainties in life. I don’t have any thing solid to believe in, or something to make me feel or believe that I’m not hopeless. I know things, and believe in facts, but that doesn’t make me feel better about it. I know too many things, and sometimes I feel like I’m going crazy. Some people don’t think I’m not very smart, because I ( Read more... )

Fantastic, it’s happening again.
I can’t stop crying. I’m worrying/scared/anxious, about what seems like everything, and that everything, is scaring the shit outta me.
I don’t know what to do. Mom is at work, and I have no "friends" to call that understands/cares/isn't super busy. I am out of Cymbalta (my current anti-depressant) I took some ____, ( ( Read more... )

I was going to delete this and start anew, but I realized the amount of work it takes, more than half the amount of work I need to do on this puppy, that i don't know even know how to do in the first place ( Read more... )

I feel really off today. maybe it's just cuz I'm in Nevada. I feel unstable and shaky, and myspace is dangerous.

ugh. It's like having a taste in my mouth that I can't wash out.

my heart feels like it's beating way too fast, and I'm not even on anything.

bleh.

I want to be back in california, pronto.

I also want to bone leo allen, but that anit likely ( Read more... )