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Aug 27, 2009 15:39

i'm so frustrated. i have a place to live here, and a job opportunity. i could fucking STAY here.
and i really, really want to.but i have so many people back home that i don't think i could leave quite yet...

isaac might not be in MA when i return. don't know how i'm supposed to react to this, but..i try to be understanding.

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gracefulwing August 27 2009, 21:16:15 UTC

You can always go back again. Ireland is not going to disappear overnight. But neither are we. <3

mommy_said August 28 2009, 13:05:47 UTC

yeah, i duno. i miss everyone back home, i just dont miss home itself.

gummy123 August 27 2009, 23:45:43 UTC

Then stay! Of course Massemoosetts people will miss you a ton. Still, sounds like a great opportunity. I think you should do it! Then again, I don't know how your life is going, so you really shouldn't listen to me. Staying in Ireland really sounds like fun though! Yeah, do it!

lovelybat August 28 2009, 05:31:31 UTC

At first I didn't notice "massemoosetts" and now that I think about it, I'm trying to decide if that would mean that we had a lot of moose or a lot of cows.

gummy123 August 28 2009, 15:01:09 UTC

I was thinking moose, not that we have a large population of moose. Or do we?... Hm...

mommy_said August 28 2009, 13:08:58 UTC

i'm pretty conflicted. i really like it here. i'm conpletely independent, i meet people every day, and the weather (rain ruining my luggage excluded) is perfect for me. but i mean..i have my friends back in MA. i have my boyfriend. there's a lot of unfinished business. i feel like if i didn't go home it would probably have a lot to do with not having the energy to deal with my current situations, and i don't want to be one of those people who run away from things when they get too difficult..

gaaah.

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lovelybat August 28 2009, 05:33:23 UTC

I feel like I could give you advice and stuff if we were chatting in person and I could ask you a few questions to get a better idea of reasons why you would want to stay there and reasons why you would want to come back. Bah, spacial divides. Do you have access to a phone?

mommy_said August 28 2009, 13:09:44 UTC

i dont have aphone, but i'm home in a week and we can hang out (:

i'm thinking that i'll come home, see my friends and family and then decide what i'm really gonna do..

drallnew August 28 2009, 14:21:52 UTC

Well I can only give you advice from my point of feelings and I have never been in your situation to the magnitude you are but. I would defiantly visit you if you stayed and I happy to hear you are having that good of a time, but I have been in similar situations (From what I can tell of yours) and I would be worried that it would rub off in a while then you would be there and not as into it.

Shit I feel like that's a total insight into me, I'm afraid of trying because it might not work out. DON'T LISTEN TO ME, that is a shitty reason not to do anything. also you seem to have figured it out the best way you can and are going to do what you feel is best. so completely ignore my advice and know that what ever you decide I'll back you, and visit you if you stayed there, as much as I could afford.

mommy_said August 28 2009, 20:31:23 UTC

that's another thing that i've been wondering about..is it ireland, or is it just that i'm somewhere new? would i get just as antsy and trapped-feeling here? maybe there's something more needed than a change in location. but, i suppose we'll see, eh?

i love you! i'm happy to have your support (:

drallnew August 28 2009, 23:32:45 UTC

honestly, that's what I was thinking, and in my experience that's usually what it is, it's nice when it's new and exciting but once that wears off it's the same old shit just in a different location. Working on the reasons for the feelings (what ever they are (the reasons)) is the way to go. Also we don't talk enough so I don't really know how you are feeling or what you are going through so I don't mean to sound like I know everything or even that I know what I'm talking about, I'm just conveying my feelings in the hope that it helps. As happy as I would be for you if you stayed I'm glad you are going to come home, I would have missed you dearly.

mommy_said August 29 2009, 17:10:03 UTC

dont worry about it, i'm glad that you're giving me your thoughts. and i think you're right about it, too. i just need to understand myself little more so i know what it is that bothers me so much about staying still..

i can't wait to hang out with you, by the way :D