I think I love everything. I'm pretty sure, actually. It's starting to make sense, in that way that will never make sense.

man, oh man...

i've been having so much useless fun lately. i'm spinning in fantastically meaningless circles, and i know i have to stop but...do i really have to stop? it's just so nice to be able to forget everything for a little while. to say "fuck it dude." and turn away. i never wanted to be like that, but now that i am it's just so wonderful. ( Read more... )

got kicked out.
got un-kicked out.
ignored the un-kick-outage.
couch surfed whilst ignoring emails and phone calls. one week.
had a missing persons report filed for me.
came home.
lost the job.
lost the orange hair.
looking for an apartment.
meeting new friends.
missing old friends.
shrugging.

I'm pretty sick of retail. oh well, i suppose it's a place i'm going to have to get used to. hopefully not in a very long-term kind of way ( Read more... )

Should I be in college? Should I be applying, at least? I guess it couldn't hurt to...I just don't want to be bullied into anything ( Read more... )

Had a pretty sweet new year's.
Had an incredible new year's, actually.
As in, amazing.

But now my whole body and being are completely run down, and Zak is going back to Florida.
Fuck! FUCK! FUUUUCK!!!!!!!

Oh well. Things are good, overall. I want to quit my job so badly...............

WHAT? WHOA. AWESOME. HOLY CRAP ( Read more... )

it's outrageous what a weekend can do to your mind.

i just want christmas to pass.

COME ON BABY LET'S MAKE LOVE IT'S THE ONLY THING THAT'LL MAKE ME BETTER

NANANANANANANANANANANANANA!

every time i start to think, really think i mean, i force myself into a situation where i'm too busy to give it any validation.

I HATE THAT