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[mommyissa]

I went to the club on Saturday and I realize I am under criticism because I drank. First of all I drove sober, I didn't drink till I got there, and I left at 4 after stopping drinking at 1. Second, I wasn't violent or rude to anyone. Third, I didn't drink anywhere near enough to be sick. Fourth, I was up bright eyed and bushy tailed at 8:30 to feed

Comments

[lady_lillith]

There's nothing wrong with consuming alcohol responsibly, which is exactly what you did. You obviously did not endanger the baby in any way since she is bottle-feeding now, rather than breast-feeding. You acted completely normally on Saturday night in my opinion. I don't know why anybody would have a problem with that. C'est la vie.

[mommyissa]

Thanks, you two! I enjoyed seeing you guys Saturday, you've both always been nothing but nice to me.
T, you make me feel MUCH better especially because of your post regarding sobriety the other day, haha.
L, I loved how we hung out on the dancefloor for like a half hour, we had a great conversation. Every time I go I hope you are there. Even though we've known each other for many years, I feel like we are actually getting to know each other now. I value the time we spend together. You are such a sweet, smart, beautiful person and I always walk away happy after hanging out with you.
I do agree with you, and yes, I've been bottle feeding since early September. In fact, I didn't even leave the house until after Brian and I had put Natalie to bed for the night. I don't know why people had a problem either, but a actually got a few phone calls, etc..wacky, huh?
Anyway, both of you have helped me to get over this and I thank you! Hopefully I'll be able to go out again sometime soon, money allowing.

[magikstick145]

I wasn't there, but from what Ive read, I know exactly how you feel. I don't get to see my friends much. getting out must have felt great!! don't worry about the bad seeds, be yourself.

sidenote on snubbing, I miss you! I have had a lot of time to think about stuff and well...

[mommyissa]

Thanks, I agree! You have no idea how much I loved getting out and seeing people. I've gone out 3 times now since I had my baby. I'm praying that the dancing will help me lose a bunch of baby weight.
Miss you too. As far as past stuff goes, I think you went about some things in a mean and a technically wrong way, but we talked about this back then and you know how I felt/feel. However, it was over 2 years ago and Karma or whatever has helped you figure out what is right, not to mention that in the grand scheme of things it's not my business. I wish things hadn't happened the way they did and I wish they hadn't turned out the way they have now, but we can only hope to move forward having learned some valuable things, right?

Hey, I should check my E-mail more often

[magikstick145]

your right, no excuses but I was really F!@#ed up back then. I've learned a lot and have had my but kicked Karmically over and over.

TTYL
Oberon

Re: Hey, I should check my E-mail more often

[mommyissa]

It was a really messed up time for all of us, wasn't it? Life is a work in progress and it's often hard to know when we're screwing up while we're in it. One can't see themself from the outside. I've made plenty of my own mistakes and I'm still paying for them now, but everyday I make it a goal to improve something about myself even if it's only a little bit.

It's morbid to say but I kind of live my life as though each day is my last. At the end of my last day, I better have accomplished something, otherwise it's just a waste. Also I think, "If I died today, would anyone show up at my funeral? Would they say good things or bad things about me?"

Not that I plan to die before I live another 80 years, it just helps keep me productive, you know?