Somehow I've gotten failure and succeeding switched.

[monbakery1]

Today I am faced with the uncertainty of trusting myself. I've asked myself so many times "How many times do you have to do this before you've proven to yourself that you're capable?" I feel ashamed when I think about how much I don't trust my own self... It's a struggle that I will be faced with for my whole life probably. I always thought that I

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[cass08]

Sounds like a confidence issue to me. You need to figure out WHY you don't feel like you are a wonderful person...and WHY you feel like you need to be an overachiever just to feel average. Was there something that happened when you were younger that made you feel worthless? If there is (and I think everybody has had an experience that made them feel that way) you need to understand that it is in the past and just because it happened once doesn't mean that you are always like that. You're an awesome person...you should learn to believe it!

[monbakery1]

Wow that is very insightful! I never fully realized that one of my main issues was that that I feel like I need to be an overachiever just to feel average. And it does make sense that I do that.

There's no one thing that happened in my childhood to make me feel this way. Basically my whole childhood in a nutshell is the explanation for being this way! Par example, I was never told that I was loved until I was 8... and it was in a crappy hallmark card. I've pretty spent my whole life being treated like I wasn't up to par somehow. No wonder I am this way! lol

Damn, I'm excited to tell my therapist about this new revelation! lol

[cass08]

It's funny. You have no idea how good it made me feel to read your response...We must be good for each other :) (I'm planning on going to grad school to become a counselor)