Mmmm, empty stomach rumblezz :)

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I've grown 4cm in the past two months, wtf. I'm now 178cm... Apart from being depressed because I'm retarded tall, and actually considering that I'm suffering from gigantisicm, I'm feeling slightly elated because the new height brings down my BMI... Yeah ( Read more... )

wooo! shower purge ( Read more... )

Sorry livejournal. Disappeared for a week ( Read more... )

Ate a muffin yesterday. Double Choc Chip. Purged. Other than that.. diet is going great. Haven't been depressed or anything lately... but now I'm just constantly super angry over the dickhead that ran into my car. Thinking of malicious ways to seek revenge on him. But not now. Because the coppas will surely know that it was me ( Read more... )

Cut myself yesterday.

Ate nothing but a chicken drumstick (that was off, and yes, I did know it was slightly off), coke zero and sugar free V. Got food poisoning and lost a kilo. Yay! Decided to lower my goal weight by 2 kgs so 4 kgs left to go, yay.

Ingested way too many carbs today. I can feel my fat stomach bulging around. Can't even purge because I know it is too far in my system. Tomorrow will be better.

fatfatfatfatfatfatfatfatfatfatfat FML.

This is my secret journal on my journey with depression and my eating disorder.

I started cutting again today. And you'd think I would've outgrown this depression bullshit at 23. I'm back at the exact same point as I was when I was 17. I don't think I will ever outgrow this.