Well I spent the day all alone... Nobody talked to me... everyone was too busy so I sat alone all day thinking... I hate that... that's the worst... So I guess I'm giving up the good fight, I'm just too lame for Megan... It's like everytime I talk to her I make it worse... I've lost any and all social skills I once had... this sucks... I guess I'm ( Read more... )

I think she does not like me, and she probably thinks I'm boring.... she just seems MEGA uninterested in everything I say... damnit damnit I'm so fucking lame and boring.... I was supposed to ask her to hang out today... but I didn't- instead I suggested she raid a pirate ship and steal treasure... then I told her thats what I like to do... damnit ( Read more... )

Right now it feels like theres something in the pit of my stomache. I try to surpess my smile but whatver it is in my stomache keeps shooting up towards my chest, neck and throat. I try supress my lips from forming a smile but again it fires and fires and I keep losing control of my mouth. I try so hard to keep my smiles hidden but it is in vain, ( Read more... )

I feel upset enough to write in here while at school. I hate this girl. I hate her boyfriend. I hate to see either of them really happy because I am not really happy. The end

It's kind of sad. I've been thinking about this one girl that used to love me. Not thinking about her persay... but the whole concept of someone actually loving me... wierd.... getting home and finding out she called like 7 times, calling her back and her having so much to tell me... staying up really late talking to her.... both of us going crazy ( Read more... )

I finally talked to Megan for the first time in months. It was radical. I enjoyed it very much so. I think I did good too... I mean I still don't know how she feels about me... does she like me at all? how much? But it was just nice to talk to her again ( Read more... )

Well I went to a couple parties last night out of boredom ( Read more... )

in the parking lot at school I was behind her and she decided she wanted a space that she already passed so she backed up really fast without looking and hit my car.. the only damage being shattering the headlight... I'm still mad ( Read more... )

Got my korg today. It is MUY RAD. It records way better than my current keyboard (no fuzz)

man it is MUY rad

I'm at school right now. I usually go to the math solution to sleep in the comfortable chairs during my 10:00-11:00 break ( Read more... )