Happy New Year to you! Your party sounded wonderful.
I think in some of the same ways you described above, and have been told it's because I want to control everything. Just meditate on it-- watch it fly in and out the window. Your genetics do play a part in shaping you, and so do forgotten childhood experiences. You'll never be able to box yourself so tightly (nor would you want to). When your personality changes it likely won't be on part of your willpower, and if it is, you will find countless other qualities pissing you off, guaranteed, in no time. There will always be things to find wrong, everywhere. The problem is- not caring about them, and not seeing that as a problem. Cheers!
Commrade, the Communist game is not silly. Don't let the party leader hear you say things like that.
Now that you mention it, I find that it took me until senior year to met, appreciate, and bond in earnest with certain people. Maybe it's because a senior has interacted with people for so long that finally he or she is comfortable enough to really get to know them. One has enough common experiences with other seniors to draw on and talk over. The idea is half-baked in my head; I apologixe if I'm not making sense.
"Like everything they do is just very natural..." Like starting up their LJ again at the beginning of the New Year? ;o)
I can see you really were unmotivated to go to bed after Rachel's. By the way, I think it's the dorks that get drunk at parties. We really should work on changing this self-image thing. I mean, what's cool about getting wasted and waking up with a hangover? Tell me, I want to know!
"Like starting up their LJ again at the beginning of the New Year?"
Hey, so I like being a bit theatrical about how I do things. =) I think everyone who has an LJ does. Call it getting in touch with my emo side - hey, I even started out the entry with a Death Cab lyric!
"In social settings, I tend to feed off of other people for my identity; I either readily adopt the behaviors, preferences, inside jokes and slang of the group I'm with"
You know, I've been through many groups of friends over the years due to moving around a lot, and that's a natural thing. You can't really be an unchanging island around which your friends whirl. It's perfectly all right for you to pick up behaviors, jokes, and phrases from the people you hang out with. As long as you're not a blank slate that says exactly what the last person you met wrote on your mind, you're still you.
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I think in some of the same ways you described above, and have been told it's because I want to control everything. Just meditate on it-- watch it fly in and out the window. Your genetics do play a part in shaping you, and so do forgotten childhood experiences. You'll never be able to box yourself so tightly (nor would you want to). When your personality changes it likely won't be on part of your willpower, and if it is, you will find countless other qualities pissing you off, guaranteed, in no time. There will always be things to find wrong, everywhere. The problem is- not caring about them, and not seeing that as a problem. Cheers!
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Now that you mention it, I find that it took me until senior year to met, appreciate, and bond in earnest with certain people. Maybe it's because a senior has interacted with people for so long that finally he or she is comfortable enough to really get to know them. One has enough common experiences with other seniors to draw on and talk over. The idea is half-baked in my head; I apologixe if I'm not making sense.
"Like everything they do is just very natural..."
Like starting up their LJ again at the beginning of the New Year? ;o)
I can see you really were unmotivated to go to bed after Rachel's. By the way, I think it's the dorks that get drunk at parties. We really should work on changing this self-image thing. I mean, what's cool about getting wasted and waking up with a hangover? Tell me, I want to know!
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Hey, so I like being a bit theatrical about how I do things. =) I think everyone who has an LJ does. Call it getting in touch with my emo side - hey, I even started out the entry with a Death Cab lyric!
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You know, I've been through many groups of friends over the years due to moving around a lot, and that's a natural thing. You can't really be an unchanging island around which your friends whirl. It's perfectly all right for you to pick up behaviors, jokes, and phrases from the people you hang out with. As long as you're not a blank slate that says exactly what the last person you met wrote on your mind, you're still you.
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