I Hate To Be You When You Don’t Love Me Anymore
Title: I Hate To Be You When You Don’t Love Me Anymore.
Pairings: EunHae
Others: SJ members and Park Eun Hye (a random name I just thought. Don’t know if there’s a celebrity with the same name.)
Chapters: 1/?
Genre: Angst, Romance, AU
Rating: PG
Warnings: Grammar mistakes, wrong usage of words.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of them except Monkey-Anchovy and Fishy. ♥
Summary: Eunhyuk loves Donghae and only him. He was super happy when Donghae seems to feel the same way too. But everything seems to fall apart when Donghae suddenly left him behind. His life becomes a mess and the wound Donghae gave him is still not healing because it's been waiting for one and only one person who will heal the wound and kissed the pain away. Will he come back and alter the past? Or, stay a coward and leave his love all behind?
Author’s Note: This is for vmaknae10 ’s request. I hope you like it! i'm sorry i took forever in writing this FIC! i just started writing this first chapter after posting the fic: Nae~Tweet~Sarang... so i want to know what do you think about it.
About this FIC: Well, the first title i thought of was RESET. i even wrote 3,000 words already but i thought of changing the setting since i can't do the summary.. i really suck at summaries.. tsk.. so i change the name into If You Can't Live Without Me, Why?. and i wrote 300+ words after. and i don't know why i changed it again and here's the final title... i'll post the scratch so that you can help me by giving me your ideas about this fic. Angst is really hard to do. it's like solving a math problem.. i'm not sure about this so i hope you can give me your feedback.. okay? ^^
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First Time
First love, first kiss, first touch, first everything. That was Lee Donghae to him. He was his everything. But does Donghae think the same as he does? He doesn’t know. Maybe… not. Not anymore.
Donghae quickly paint him and drew him beautifully with his paint and board. But after he was done, Dognhae quickly sold him away as he vanishes into thin air that day. How stupid Donghae can be. If he wanted to leave him alone, then he should’ve told him, the sooner the better. But Donghae didn’t even do that because he’s a coward. He didn’t even breathe a goodbye to him before he left. Donghae just leave. And he left together with a girl. A girl. You know how much it hurts? It hurts like he’d been electrified, then crucified before burying him on the earth barely alive.
It hurts until now, whenever he remembers the past vividly. He still cries on his sleeps. He still weeps. He always had nightmares. And he still does, from time to time. When the wound opens again and bleed once more. He would still cry and blame everything on Donghae for leaving him just like that.
How could he? How could Donghae use me? How could he trash me after he’s done with me? How could he love Donghae so much? How could he give everything up? How could he help him used me until he’s all worn out?
Damn, his wound is starting to swell up again and blood started to flow out on his broken heart and shattered life. He should stop the bleeding. He should stop remembering the vivid past. He should stop caring for Donghae now. He should stop loving him with everything he got. He should stop it all off because that’s all he needed to stop the wound from bleeding over and over again.
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“Why Hae? Why are you like the thorns on the rose that can’t help but to prick my heart every time I touched the sad thorny past?" Eunhyuk ask as he watches the blue sky on his window.
“Hyuk, how are you?” asks the worried Sungmin. He then helps Eunhyuk up on his bed and take a seat.
“I’m f-fine Min. I guess, I’m fine.” Eunhyuk replied in grimace.
“Forget about him, Hyukkie. I told you to stop thinking about him, right?” Sungmin said with annoyed face.
“I-I can’t seem to forget about him, Minnie. The wound he gave me was so much for me to bear. It takes death to heal this kind of wound.” Eunhyuk replied with the grimace expression on his face.
Sungmin can only look at his best friend’s status right now. He had an accident, three years ago because of that man. The man he thought that will make his best friend feels love. But he thought wrong. Because the guy back-stab his best friend and even cheated on him face to face! What did Eunhyuk did to deserve this kind of love? What did he do to suffer the consequences in loving Donghae? What did he do to be this kind of person he is right now? His eyes turn colder day by day. His heart builds a wall that couldn’t break. His feelings, even the way he sees things becomes black and white. Eunhyuk was quickly feeling numb. He was rapidly losing the Eunhyuk that he was back then. A loving and a happy person he was. But now, he was the coldest and heartless as time goes by.
“Hyuk, think of us instead. We’re all here for you. Fight for us. Fight for your friends that didn’t leave you behind. Hyuk, stop hurting yourself over and over again. Move one. Donghae is not worth your love.” Sungmin wants Eunhyuk to see the truth. The reality without Donghae by his side anymore. The reality that Donghae left him with another girl.
“But he’s all I need… he’s…” Eunhyuk’s voice trails off when his tears started to fall. Donghae was all his heart needs. He was all his everything needs.
“But we need you too, Hyuk. We need you to be there with us, every time. Do you understand?” Sungmin can’t help but to let his tears come down too. They were all doing their best to fight with Eunhyuk. To give him an unending support. But Donghae’s too powerful to beat even if the twelve of us joined forces together.
“I know, Minnie. I know. And I’m glad you didn’t give up on me yet…” Eunhyuk formed a small smile to his best friend. Sungmin just hugs him tightly.
“Don’t ever say that word, Hyuk. We will never leave you. Never!”
“Thanks. It’s time for me to finally move on, Min. I hope you all will support and help me, okay?” Eunhyuk stated and that made Sungmin smiled brightly. At last, his best friend finally sees the light.
“Hyuk, thank you. Thank you. Thank you.” Sungmin said and squeezed his best friend into a tight hug.
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Here's the Edited/Behind the BITE scenes:
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If You can't live without me, Why?
please let me know what you think of this, please.. ♥ thanks ♥
Comments are Super Duper LOVED <33333333333333333333
Pairings: EunHae
Others: SJ members and Park Eun Hye (a random name I just thought. Don’t know if there’s a celebrity with the same name.)
Chapters: 1/?
Genre: Angst, Romance, AU
Rating: PG
Warnings: Grammar mistakes, wrong usage of words.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of them except Monkey-Anchovy and Fishy. ♥
Summary: Eunhyuk loves Donghae and only him. He was super happy when Donghae seems to feel the same way too. But everything seems to fall apart when Donghae suddenly left him behind. His life becomes a mess and the wound Donghae gave him is still not healing because it's been waiting for one and only one person who will heal the wound and kissed the pain away. Will he come back and alter the past? Or, stay a coward and leave his love all behind?
Author’s Note: This is for vmaknae10 ’s request. I hope you like it! i'm sorry i took forever in writing this FIC! i just started writing this first chapter after posting the fic: Nae~Tweet~Sarang... so i want to know what do you think about it.
About this FIC: Well, the first title i thought of was RESET. i even wrote 3,000 words already but i thought of changing the setting since i can't do the summary.. i really suck at summaries.. tsk.. so i change the name into If You Can't Live Without Me, Why?. and i wrote 300+ words after. and i don't know why i changed it again and here's the final title... i'll post the scratch so that you can help me by giving me your ideas about this fic. Angst is really hard to do. it's like solving a math problem.. i'm not sure about this so i hope you can give me your feedback.. okay? ^^
♫♥♫
First Time
First love, first kiss, first touch, first everything. That was Lee Donghae to him. He was his everything. But does Donghae think the same as he does? He doesn’t know. Maybe… not. Not anymore.
Donghae quickly paint him and drew him beautifully with his paint and board. But after he was done, Dognhae quickly sold him away as he vanishes into thin air that day. How stupid Donghae can be. If he wanted to leave him alone, then he should’ve told him, the sooner the better. But Donghae didn’t even do that because he’s a coward. He didn’t even breathe a goodbye to him before he left. Donghae just leave. And he left together with a girl. A girl. You know how much it hurts? It hurts like he’d been electrified, then crucified before burying him on the earth barely alive.
It hurts until now, whenever he remembers the past vividly. He still cries on his sleeps. He still weeps. He always had nightmares. And he still does, from time to time. When the wound opens again and bleed once more. He would still cry and blame everything on Donghae for leaving him just like that.
How could he? How could Donghae use me? How could he trash me after he’s done with me? How could he love Donghae so much? How could he give everything up? How could he help him used me until he’s all worn out?
Damn, his wound is starting to swell up again and blood started to flow out on his broken heart and shattered life. He should stop the bleeding. He should stop remembering the vivid past. He should stop caring for Donghae now. He should stop loving him with everything he got. He should stop it all off because that’s all he needed to stop the wound from bleeding over and over again.
♪♪♪♪
“Why Hae? Why are you like the thorns on the rose that can’t help but to prick my heart every time I touched the sad thorny past?" Eunhyuk ask as he watches the blue sky on his window.
“Hyuk, how are you?” asks the worried Sungmin. He then helps Eunhyuk up on his bed and take a seat.
“I’m f-fine Min. I guess, I’m fine.” Eunhyuk replied in grimace.
“Forget about him, Hyukkie. I told you to stop thinking about him, right?” Sungmin said with annoyed face.
“I-I can’t seem to forget about him, Minnie. The wound he gave me was so much for me to bear. It takes death to heal this kind of wound.” Eunhyuk replied with the grimace expression on his face.
Sungmin can only look at his best friend’s status right now. He had an accident, three years ago because of that man. The man he thought that will make his best friend feels love. But he thought wrong. Because the guy back-stab his best friend and even cheated on him face to face! What did Eunhyuk did to deserve this kind of love? What did he do to suffer the consequences in loving Donghae? What did he do to be this kind of person he is right now? His eyes turn colder day by day. His heart builds a wall that couldn’t break. His feelings, even the way he sees things becomes black and white. Eunhyuk was quickly feeling numb. He was rapidly losing the Eunhyuk that he was back then. A loving and a happy person he was. But now, he was the coldest and heartless as time goes by.
“Hyuk, think of us instead. We’re all here for you. Fight for us. Fight for your friends that didn’t leave you behind. Hyuk, stop hurting yourself over and over again. Move one. Donghae is not worth your love.” Sungmin wants Eunhyuk to see the truth. The reality without Donghae by his side anymore. The reality that Donghae left him with another girl.
“But he’s all I need… he’s…” Eunhyuk’s voice trails off when his tears started to fall. Donghae was all his heart needs. He was all his everything needs.
“But we need you too, Hyuk. We need you to be there with us, every time. Do you understand?” Sungmin can’t help but to let his tears come down too. They were all doing their best to fight with Eunhyuk. To give him an unending support. But Donghae’s too powerful to beat even if the twelve of us joined forces together.
“I know, Minnie. I know. And I’m glad you didn’t give up on me yet…” Eunhyuk formed a small smile to his best friend. Sungmin just hugs him tightly.
“Don’t ever say that word, Hyuk. We will never leave you. Never!”
“Thanks. It’s time for me to finally move on, Min. I hope you all will support and help me, okay?” Eunhyuk stated and that made Sungmin smiled brightly. At last, his best friend finally sees the light.
“Hyuk, thank you. Thank you. Thank you.” Sungmin said and squeezed his best friend into a tight hug.
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Here's the Edited/Behind the BITE scenes:
Reset
If You can't live without me, Why?
please let me know what you think of this, please.. ♥ thanks ♥
Comments are Super Duper LOVED <33333333333333333333