Title: Ghost (First Appearance)
Pairings: EunHae, SJ couples.
Genre: Romance, Angst, fluff?
Rating: PG
Warnings: Grammar mistakes, wrong usage of words.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of them except Monkey-Anchovy and Fishy. ♥
Summary: Eunhyuk is planning to propose to her girlfriend but a sudden accident occurred and her girlfriend died. Will he find love again? (sorry, sorry.. my summary sucks)
Author’s Note: I am going to dedicate this Fic to the Manila Bus Hostage-Taking last August 23. I feel bad for what happened to the victims and hope they may rest in peace.
It is God’s will that it happened and God has his reasons. So I hope everything's going to be alright.
People make mistakes right?
-“Hyuk, you will be alright… as soon as love finds you again. You’ll be alright.” Leeteuk said to himself and finally joined them at the living room. - I’m sorry if I put this in Eunhyuk’s POV when I know he didn’t hear Eeteuk say this. I had to put it because I love what he says here. :))
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Written in Eunhyuk’s POV
“I’m sorry… I’m sorry… I’m sorry, Maya.” My voice trailed off saying those words to her. I was inside the church, making my speech in front of everyone who came to her wake.
“I…” I couldn’t finish everything I had to say. I wanted to speak but my mind went off and I couldn’t think.
I wanted to say I’m sorry, I love you and I miss you to her. It was my entire fault for bringing her into her end. But now, I can’t seem to say these words to her anymore because she’s not coming back. I made her leave me. I made her go away.
“I’m sorry” I whispered as I look at her, sleeping in her coffin.
Her mom hugged me from behind. Saying it’s okay, it’s alright and everything’s going to be fine. But how can it be when I was the one who killed her? How can it be okay when I know it’s all my fault?
“I’m sorry Mom. It’s my fault I made her… leave us.” I said to her mom once again and cried into her arms. I couldn’t take it. She didn’t even say goodbye to me. She didn’t even… and as I remembered our last conversation, I cried once more.
*Flashback*
“*Maya” I excitedly called her. (Maya is a Nepalese word for love)
“Yes Maya? How are you? Are you already in Mokpo?” she replied happily.
“Yes. And I want you to come here as well because I have a very important announcement to you, okay?” I asked. I am planning to propose to her tonight.
“Very important announcement? What is it? Hey, Silver! Stop teasing your sister! I’m sorry Maya.” She said.
“It’s okay. You’re in the foundation?”
“Yes. Silver and Ocean wants me to stay. Is it really that important? Can we just talk it over the phone?”
“No. I want to say it to you personally. And it cannot wait, Maya. Please? I’ll buy toys for the twins next time, okay? Please, please, please?” I pleaded.
I swear! My proposal couldn’t wait. I prepared everything tonight, even my speech.
I heard her talking to the twins before she finally answers.
“Maya, the twins said they don’t need toys. They want you to take them to the amusement park next week. Is it okay?” she asked.
“Daddy Hyukkie, we will not give Mommy Ra Hyo to you if you don’t promise to take us to the amusement park!” said Silver.
“He’s right Daddy Hyukkie. We want to ride the rorrer roaster there!” said Ocean.
“Okay… okay… I’ll take you there and we’ll have a family outing next week okay?” I answered in between laugh. The twins are so cute.
They’re only three but they seem to know a lot. They were abandoned by their parents since they were babies and since Ra Hyo is
helping the foundation they were in, she took in charge of the twins.
I heard them cheered. They shouted ‘I love you Daddy Hyukkie’ over the phone.
“Maya, can you kiss them for me? And don’t forget to say ‘I love you too’ to them as well.”
“So,” I asked once again after she’s done doing what I told to her.
“Okay. Seems like you wanted to see me that badly, huh?” she teased that brought smile to my lips.
“You bet. Thanks Maya. And don’t be late! The last bus will be in an hour. I love you!” I said with a wide smile from my face.
“Okay. See you! Love you too! Bye!” she replied.
*End of flashback*
……………………………
If I didn’t insist on proposing to her that night, it will never happen. If I didn’t think selfishly of myself, this wouldn’t happen.
I wish I didn’t tell her to come. If I did, she would probably be still alive right now, hugging me in her arms.
And as I look at the rectangular bed she was laying, I couldn’t help but to cry once again. She’s leaving me this soon and I couldn’t take it.
But I know, no matter how hard he cries, he can never make her come back to life. He doesn’t have any powers to make the time turn back and save her. He had nothing in his possession that can make her come back. He doesn’t have any.
As I watch her coffin pulled down to her final destination: the earth she’s going to sleep in forever, I let out my tears fall down once again.
I couldn’t bear looking at her so I took a step backwards and turn around and think of running away from the misery he made to himself.
But before I could even make a step, the twins are now in front of me, sad faces on their faces.
“Daddy Hyukkie” the twins both chorused.
I hugged them both.
They kissed me on my cheeks as a reply.
“Mommy Ra Hyo said to kiss you Dad.” They both chorused again.
I looked at them in disbelief.
“She was here about a minute ago, but she took off when she saw you looking sad. She doesn’t want you to be sad, Dad. Please don’t be sad. We’re going to hug and kiss you when you’re sad. Mom said you love it when she hugs and kisses you. We’ll do it!” said the older twin and sniffs.
“Silver’s right Daddy Hyukkie. We’ll be here with you always. I’m going to take care of you because I’m a big girl now.” The younger twin added.
I look at the twins. Silver’s the oldest by a minute and he was name after me. Ra Hyo said he was just like me. He’s tidy with his things but he’s untidy with his own personal hygiene. He rarely takes a bath and he always said he hates water. He’s skinny and love’s to make pranks to people especially to her sister Ocean. Ocean is the younger one. She was named after the ocean, of course. She loves to take a bath and loves water very much so Ra Hyo said it would be a perfect name for her. She’s a crybaby and very childish even though she’s still three. She’s also very untidy with her things and very clumsy which makes her the opposite of her brother.
I kissed both of them on their foreheads.
“Thanks son and my little princess.” I said to them and put them into my arms once again.
I believed that they can see things that older men like me couldn’t see. Maybe she’s still here, watching me, us.
I took their hands and went to where her coffin was. I whispered ‘I love you’ and ‘I miss you’ while looking at the place she was going to rest forever and promised to take care of everything she cared.
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It’s been a week since the accident happened and it’s still on the news this evening. There are still questions that didn’t have answer yet. Like how did the bus fell from the cliff? Is it the driver’s fault or is it just totally accidental?
“Stupid people. They’re still thinking of ways to solve what causes the problem even though it’s already ended.” I said while looking at the crime scene on the screen. The bus is still there for investigation. There are still traces of blood all-over the place, indicating that people died in there.
“Last Monday, a bus fell from the cliff while heading its way to Mokpo. The bus had eleven passengers including its driver. Ten of them died but only one of them survived from the tragic accident. He was sent to Mokpo Hospital immediately. The doctors have said he had vital signs but he’s still be going under observation. It’s a miracle that one of them survived. While the government said that they will make sure that this accident will never happen again.” The broadcaster has said.
I took a sip from my coffee and finally turned off the tv. I rested on the sofa, looking at the ceiling when the boy’s image suddenly appeared on my mind. Maybe he saw Ra Hyo there when the accident happen. Maybe he can ask him about her when he finally wakes up, he thought.
He then finally fell asleep, the boy’s image still on his mind.
“Hyukkie… Maya… Hyukkie… Maya…” someone’s calling me while caressing my face. I thought of my girlfriend and finally I woke up in shocked.
Did he heard it right? Did that someone called me Maya? I shrug off the thought. It cannot be. Maybe I’m just imagining things.
…
I went to the bathroom and washed my face. I promised to take care of everything she left here but look at him, he’s still sulking. All he do is cry, stare and think about her all the time. I can’t even seem to function myself well.
“Damn it, Eunhyuk! Get a hold of yourself! She’s never coming back! She never will.” And tears fall again once more.
It’s hard to move on when everything you dreamed together with her seems to fall and crushed easily just like that.
“I have to be strong… I had to… Even though my source of strength is gone now… forever gone.” I said to myself as I sat at the closed toilet bowl, holding my knees in my arms and buried my face on it.
I fall asleep again.
…
I woke up from my uncomfortable position on the bathroom by a knock at the door. I supposedly can’t hear it but unfortunately, the bathroom’s door is wide open. So I stood up from my seat and stretch my muscles before going out.
I didn’t even care if he looked like a criminal right now. With a mustache and a beard on my face, red eyes and dark circles around it. To top it all off, a very crazy hairdo that can pass to be Einstein’s apprentice.
“Who’s there?” I asked and open the door.
I heard two kids, a boy and a girl screamed their lungs out like they’ve seen much worse than a ghost.
“Eunhyukkie! What have you done these past few days? Look at you! You look like worse than the Grudge! You look paler! And you scared the twins!” Leeteuk-hyung exclaims and then hugged me.
“Eew! You smell awful! Much worse than your smelly feet! Go now and take a bath!” he said and drags me to the bathroom.
“Hyung I- he motions me to shut up and that’s what I did. I still haven’t had enough strength to talk anyway.
“Just please take a bath now, Hyuk. You really looked awful. I’ll make the breakfast now so take your time there, okay?” he said and smiled at me. And before I could even make a reply, he shuts the door into my face. I shrug my shoulders and put a faint smile on my face as I head down to the shower room.
It’s cold. The water’s cold. But my heart is colder, colder than ever.
…
As I finish taking a bath, I headed out of the room and scanned my apartment. It was messy before Leeteuk-hyung came but now it was totally cleaned. I looked for them and found them in the kitchen, Leeteuk-hyung’s cooking while the twins waiting for the meal to be served.
I took one of the seats there and smiled at the twins.
“Daddy Hyukkie, I’m sorry we didn’t hug you earlier. But now, we can.” Said Silver and hug me. Ocean did the same too and kissed me on the cheek.
“Daddy Hyukkie, we’re going to stay with you now.” said Ocean. And that made me frowned. I look at my Hyung and found out he was looking at us too while holding the pan with bacons and eggs inside.
“She’s right Hyuk. They will be staying with you from now on. The foundation said it will be good for you to have them around since you’re close with them.” Leeteuk-hyung said and plates the food down in the table.
“But Hyung- I didn’t finish my line again because he now puts the bacon inside my mouth.
“We’ll talk later. For now, eat.” and smiled to me once again. I just did what he told me and chew the bacon into my mouth.
…
“Teukie-hyung, the foundation cannot take out the kids without an adoption paper! How can they just let out the kids just like that?!” I said kind of worried about the twins and the other kids as well when they do this kind of things.
“Hyuk, Ra Hyo already readied everything before she- he stops and shakes his head before continuing.
“Here” Leeteuk handed him a piece of paper.
I scanned the paper and found out Leeteuk-hyung was right. It was clearly stated there that I now have the authority and right to the twins.
“Huh! She knows well that she’s leaving me soon so she made this…” I said and smirk. I crumbled the paper and slump myself on the floor and cried. I can’t even seem to control my emotions anymore.
It hurts. It hurts a lot. I punched my chest so that the pain may go away but it doesn’t seem to help. It just adds to the pain I am feeling.
She knows that she’s going to… die soon, why didn’t she told me so that I readied myself. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you… but you knew that I love you.
“Hyuk, I know you would do that so I photocopied it. The one you crumpled was the Xerox copy. I kept the original so that you wouldn’t do anything dumb about it.” He said to me with a slight smile on his lips. He’s still making me laugh even at a time like this. He already knew me… Inside and out.
“Thanks Hyung.” I finally said. There’s nothing I can do about it anyway. I stood up and hug him.
“Then, I have no choice but to burn your house then.” I said as a joke and put a smile on my face. I tapped his shoulders and went outside to talk to the kids.
“Hyuk, you will be alright… as soon as love finds you again. You’ll be alright.” Leeteuk said to himself and finally joined them at the living room.
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Author’s Note: I’m scared to post this because the girl here was none other than me. (Gomenasai! Chesunghamnida! Mianhe! Sorry a thousand times!). But I died so don’t worry. TT I put my Korean name here because, I guess, I want my name to appear in here? Please forgive me!
Angst: this is my first angst story. If you didn’t find it sad, I’m sorry; it’s my first time to write an Angst Fic. This is so far my favorite because all of my fics were all cheesy and funny. Though some parts here with Teukie OooPPaa is funny.
Ocean and Silver: i want to name my kids in the future like that somehow. it's cute isn't it?
I still don’t know how many appearances I’m going to make but I think 3 parts will be fine or four. I am now going to get busy writing the second appearance and A Super Junior Tale. So, Wish me luck!
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