Comments | mongoo: So OK Here's The Story

mongoo

So OK Here's The Story

Aug 22, 2004 22:11

I have not posted a real entry here in quite some time. It’s probably because I am a bit intimidated by so many of the other journals that I have been looking through. There is a reason for my intimidation; some of you who read this know some of it and others… probably don’t. So I have decided to put the story here once for all and have done with ( Read more... )

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naebliser August 22 2004, 22:55:14 UTC

red/orange capsules you say, what is it that you are taking?

mongoo August 23 2004, 09:05:09 UTC

effexor (venlafaxine)

islandgirlsj August 23 2004, 07:11:05 UTC

I think it takes an awfully strong person to admit what you have been through, where you hope to be, dreams dashed, and a new beginning. I admire that greatly.

I think you are on your way to a wonderful life, after all, you have your eyes open now, and a world of opportunities in front of you.

faerlyn_darkelf August 23 2004, 08:42:42 UTC

Icon love!!!!!!! <3 <3

mongoo August 23 2004, 09:06:46 UTC

Thank you for the kind words... its been hard, but there is a sweetness to life that I never dreamed of...

faerlyn_darkelf August 23 2004, 08:42:22 UTC

I never thought about it until I read this post, but I guess the same thing happened to me. But I just don't think about it. I am happy now, I look forward to the future, and enjoy what I have and what will be. (my pills are white) ;)

mongoo August 23 2004, 09:09:12 UTC

I am gald that you found help too... (my pills are prettier then your pills... :p j/k)

faerlyn_darkelf August 23 2004, 09:10:31 UTC

ROFL
Sounds like it!! It's just amazing, isn't it...the difference it makes...

mongoo August 23 2004, 09:57:34 UTC

Oh gods yes... there are side effects on some days... but I would take this and day... I have a feeling that for the first time in my life.... I am happy...

chamerilla August 23 2004, 13:53:56 UTC

hmm ok ima get deep.
i think your so caught up in the fact that you missed so much of your life that your not living your life. your making yourself sad because you dont know how to be happy. youve never been "happy"
i think you need to take a giant leap. find somethign youve always wanted to do and not ever do. go ski diving. go mountain climbing. travel the world. go backpacking across europe do something that scares the living shit out of you but at the same time excites you.
just dont go having sex with to many ronchy people. :P

mongoo August 23 2004, 16:12:46 UTC

Actually, for the most part I have managed to find a great deal of happiness. Its just that I have reached a point where two things have happened. The first is that I've found that it's harder to catch up than I thought and the second is that it's hard to keep the whole thing secret.

I have thought about Europe a number of times, and may do it yet. And call me foolish, but I don't want just a sexual experience, I want a transcending experience with someone special.

jrabbity August 23 2004, 15:09:15 UTC

Hi, mongoo. Happy birthday!

I know you more after reading this journal. :)

mongoo August 24 2004, 09:29:32 UTC

hmmmmm... that might not be such a good thing.... :)

mongoo August 24 2004, 09:30:46 UTC

Oh, and thank you for wishing me a happy birthday... :)

I had a similar story but with a different basis psychicmuse August 25 2004, 09:38:14 UTC

Psychiatric medications don't help me, because that wasn't my problem, really. But I know what its like to lose an entire chunk of your life and to feel like part of you went away for a long time.

My life journal entails some of my journey out of that black period, and into the light of self admission and acceptance.

I kind of feel inferior to other people a lot too. Your live journal is nicer than mine, does that make you feel any better?

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