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So as more and more time went on the fact that I was getting to this point probably became apparent to a lot of people. Yeah, it probably looks like a lot of recent things were the catalyst but this isn't anyone's fault and this isn't for any one reason. And like I said, this has been a long time coming either way. You just get to a point where it's beyond fun anymore and honestly, what's the point of keeping up with it if that's the case?
I've spent a year and a half being me, and while I realize that compared to a lot of you that's nothing, it's still a long time in the grand scheme of things when it comes to me. In that time I've met some amazing and unforgettable people that I love very much and will be grateful to the game forever for introducing us. And even though I don't want to drag this out anymore than I have to, I am going to take some time to say my piece.
Marla, you are forever and always my girl and I love you. Our creepiness transcends anything and everything and it was you that kept me coming back to this even when I was ready to leave it behind long ago. You are one of the greatest people I've had the opportunity to get to know.
Adam, you are fantastic. I adore you beyond reason and our conversations about everything spanning from rap to porn will always make me smile. You are the other one that made it mostly impossible for me to be able to walk away from this. Stay true to yourself, homie. Big ups.
Marshall, I love you. I feel like anything else I say would just be in some kind of code that only you and I would understand, Archie. Peanuts and All in the Family and Gloria will always make me smile and think of you.
Aaron, you are amazing and I love you very much. You were everything even though I sucked at being around to be able to show you that. Be happy, you deserve that. :-*
Michelle, I'm sorry that I leave you like this but I hope you know how great you are. I hope you keep the house we bought and still make it your own. Pretend this is my will where I give you my share of it I love you.
I can't keep going because the more I go on the harder this is. I've already tried to keep it short and sweet with what I did say because if this turns into some crazy, long thing then I feel like I'm not going to be able to walk away and it's at that point where I need to because the relationships I do have and that matter to me are suffering because of the way I'm not around because I'm not into it the way I was. And I'd rather bow out gracefully now than get to the point where everything is gone because of my own doing. And even though this is less than you deserve, I still want to say thank you for being you to Joss Stone, Shawn Ashmore, Sean Faris, Shirley Manson, Jon Radtke, Usher Raymond, William Beckett, James Franco, Taylor Locke, Robert Carmine, Vinnie Kartheiser, and Kelli Garner. I'm probably forgetting people and I just blame it on the time of night right now and the fact that I'm old and just suck. That doesn't mean that I don't love you though, I promise. And then those that are gone that deserve a shout out, like Matt Skiba, Mat Devine, Ryan Adams, and Evan Taubenfeld.
And of course in the age old ways that we all know, I'm still not completely gone from this place. If you want to know where else to find me, just say so. All comments are screened so you can say what you will. Also, let me know if you want to stay added. I'll be removing people in the next couple of days so if you want to be kept on for whatever reason, just say so. I'd like to pick the next me, I think I've put enough time in that it's not too much to ask. Really, I don't think there's much demand or interest, but all the same you can reach me at monica_keena@livejournal.com. And this has all worked out to be strangely in character, especially considering the context of this post, but oh well. It's been real folks, take care of yourselves.