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[monkeyfunk]

I have pissed away four days of time off. I didn't even go outside the house. I've just been drinking coffee, staying up all night and using the 'Net. I know I'm to blame, but the sense of missed opportunity is immense to me. To start to sort myself out. But I can't. Not now. Everything seems extremely futile. I spoke to Kerry on the phone last

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[drivelikejehn]

that entire second paragraph (and the post, in general) is something of considerable strength. i have a tendancy to relate words to myself, therefore always finding some level of empathy within, but i quite know what you are talking about and i'm exceptionally sad (that you have to go through it) and happy (that someone else besides me is going through it) that you've articulated such concerns.

i think we'd benefit talking to one another sometime. [nod]

xoxo.
j.

ps. don't move from England. if you do, i'll have to hunt you down and kick you in the shin.

[monkeyfunk]

Thank you for the kind words, Jen, truly. A talk would be good, yeah, I'm quite approachable (post-coffee, that is)

Do you have MSN or AIM?

Guarding my shins, (??)
Mxx

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[drivelikejehn]

aim--revisionaryjen

and there is no need to protect your shins until you LEAVE, silly.

[imnotnormal]

envisioning a future in this country is not so bad. I have trouble envisioning a future at all, let alone this country. Material things mean nothing. And you have to get on without her. imagine that it was just a dream and that it never really happened. that sometimes helps. or just makes you more depressed. sorry if this doesnt help, im a little drunk right now.

[voreagkelos]

I'm not much good on advice...I'm in a risky open relationship with a bisexual uni student who I will only see on and off for the next four years...my general viewpoint is *shrug*...sums up my view on life too come to think of it. Not that I don't love her it's just that I'm not really going to be torn apart by any 'emotional' issues...got a bit of scar tissue protecting those parts.

What I will say is try your very hardest to keep communications open, she is the person you wish to share everything with so you don't want to become strangers through holding your feelings back. Made that mistake myself