Sometimes I wish I could just crawl into a hole and never come out again.  Ironically enough I feel like I'm in a dark tunnel and I can't see the light at the end.  Almost as if it goes on forever.  I still feel like it is all my fault that they are gone.  Well maybe not all but I can't help but feel like if I hadn't been here they would still be ( Read more... )

I hope that all the hate that I have inside will tear the weakness from my very bones.  If I ever called you friend chances are I hate you now.  I've been pushed to far by so many.

I feel sad to sum it up.  I want so desperately to think of the good memories I have in my head.  They seem to be harder to reach sometimes.  I wish I could go back and relive some of the things that actually made me feel something resembling joy.  When my baby dog first licked my face, but than I remember he isn't around to ever do that again.  ( Read more... )

Everything is lost and I'm drowning.

 I wanted it to just stop tonight but I didn't know how to do it.  Life on earth is simply a burden I don't know that I'm up to doing anymore.  I feel like I'm losing everything.  I feel like I'm losing everyone.  I feel so very alone right now.  It hurts.  So many things are going on that I simply do not understand.  Maybe I never will.  I know ( Read more... )

I don't get my fairytale

Hollow is how I feel right now.  I'm lonely and feeling hopeless.  
We are past the midpoint of this living hell but I still am quite scared.
My therapy appointment today made me a bit depressed.
I should have been able to count on my mom more.
I guess I just have to rise above it.
It was just really hard to talk about with someone.
I wish I weren't ( Read more... )

Your Famous Movie Kiss is from The Empire Strikes Back
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If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

- Courtney Kuchta -

I'm extremely depressed an a bit hurt. Today wasn't a good day. That dark cloud that seems to be catching up with me won't go away. I can't really describe in words what has me so down. Images flash through my head of how I could just make it all stop. A part of me wants to but the other part is a coward. I feel lonely. No matter what I say ( Read more... )