I can't dance.

This is not entirely accurate. I can dance okay. I cannot get in from of auditioners and dance without my entire body freezing, my mind forgetting everything, and my lungs forgetting how to work.

So in effect, I can't dance in front of anyone who matters.

I don't know how to fix it.

Man, all I want is to be cast in a show.

On the plus side, however, my current show-less state is letting my schedule be nice and free so I can audition for the CAP performance in the Thanksgiving Parade without fear of not being able to do it due to conflicts. So, yay for that, I guess.

My life has been weird lately. Good, but weird.

For most of my life, I have been ashamed of what makes me happy.

I'm done with that now. I've been working towards it for a while. But now, I'm just going to say dammit, this ends.

I am no longer apologizing for my own happiness.

New musical obsession:

Hair.

End of story.

Man...I just don't seem to understand myself any more. I'm frightened of my own shadow half the time, and the other half of the time I don't know what I'm doing, what I am ( Read more... )

And yet, as is my MO, everything somehow works out in the most amazing way possible.

Dear Michael,

Stop bitching so much about your life. It's never as bad as you think it is, and you hold on for about twenty more seconds and everything gets wonderful again.

Love,
Michael

Total days in New York City: 4

Days spent in New York City before becoming embroiled in another sticky situation: 1

New record I think?

Either way, Level Up!

Lvl. 4 Emo Mage became Lvl. 5 Drama Sophomore!

No new abilities gained.

+5 to Impulsiveness

+5 to Musicality

+5 to Angst

Exp. to next lvl: 567876

I think in a curious way that the world shows me what I need to see exactly when I need to see it. Or maybe my subconscious just knows better than I, and draws me towards them ( Read more... )

I think I'm going a little bit crazy.

After all, madness is like gravity, and I've had my share of pushes lately.

Tomorrow I am going to see Hair in central park with two of my best friends ( Read more... )