i haven't updated in awhile. i have been busy. plus i no longer have a computer at home, so only at work can i do this. i am at work now and i am bored. i just returned from a busy and exciting weekend at wanderland in roxbury pa. it was awesome. i was afraid i would be depressed but actually i wasn't at all. last year's roxbury show was the ( Read more... )

GOT RID OF THIS ENTRY. HE FAILED THE TEST. THE DREAM IS OVER. I AM SAD ( Read more... )

well what to say? i haven't updated in awhile. things are going ok. last weekend was all good. i had a good time but some of the magic has worn off i think. a lot of that has to do with people and their drama. such as, luke and miller and their fighting,big john being there and never even telling me. they never called me until bob dylan's ( Read more... )

i sure do hate money. maybe if i had more of it, things would not be so bad.. my basic problem is that i am terrible of keeping track of it all...and i have extreme anxiety about stupid things like going to the bank, or things like that. so due to these factors i had to pay a triple car payment this week. apparently i missed 2 payments a few ( Read more... )

in case you forgot...
i, miss you a lot
and my love is strong
just so you know..
you are my song..

just when life is truly pretty crappy, with the faintest glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel... you go to the blue star, to see hexbelt and dance/drown away your sorrows..go out at set break for a breather, and next thing you know some punk is holding a gun in your face through the open window of your moms car... why is this my life? where ( Read more... )

well maybe not things, maybe just one thing. one thing i really hate about myself is that usually i am so hyper sensitive. today on the phone, jon sort of jumper down my throat about something (which he shouldn't have done, but that is not the issue at all) and right away the tears come to my eyes.... i wish i wasn't like that, that i would just ( Read more... )

sometimes there is a swarm of angry bees in my brain. so i get online (when i can) and write some of it out here in this journal. just to clear my head. somtimes things seem more clear when you can just take the time to write it down and look at it in your own words. or something like that. which is why my entries are sometimes so so long... ( Read more... )

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn, is just to love, and be loved in return ( Read more... )

not to brag, not at all...but i have a lot of friends. my varied life experiences have introduced me to a bunch of different people. i love them. all of them. i have trouble though, balancing my social life...trying to be a good friend...sometimes i fall very short. then time goes by, gets more and more akward to call them...and i feel ( Read more... )