I am a failure. Only read if you'd like to get depressed/care about what's been going on with me

[moonbabyhowl]

I feel very lost and confused. The past few days have been a blur of apprehension and clouded thoughts. I've stopped going to the Habilitation Center. I don't feel like I can go back, even if they're now starting to talk about putting me into something more tuned to what I'd enjoy doing. But that wouldn't even help, in the long run. The assembly

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Re: Prescient

[moonbabyhowl]

Thanks for that. It's been seeming that people are more concerned with "fixing" what's going on, instead of just giving me some understanding.

I feel like an emo saying that, but that's how it is...:/

[dunpokethebear]

nobody is really a failure.

just ones existence proves they are here for a reason.

[moonbabyhowl]

I guess... But I have, so far, failed at all the things I set out to do at that place. Everything seems to have fallen apart and I don't feel I have the strength left to pull it back together on my own.

Thank you for your kind words though. I agree, but disagree at the same time. It's complicated...

[dunpokethebear]

I agree sometimes things are very complicated.

But I also believe sometimes things are only as complicated as we make them ourselves.

Somethings we just have to acknowledge,and them let them go.

[thewerewolf]

I honestly wish I knew what to say that would make you feel better. I don't want to insult you by saying I know how you feel - I don't - but I do know how bits of it feel.

Trapped. No direction that works. No help. Just words words words. Friends who say they're your friends but really are just waiting for you to screw up so they can enjoy your failures. No one you can trust to turn your back to.

And wanting to run run run.. and never stop.. get away to someplace safe and quiet.

Alone can be good.