I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU I CAN'T GET OVER YOU
note: this fanaccount is extremely jaejoong-biased. i can’t help but focus my sight on him ;;
airport/stalking
i was at the airport from 7.30 am and i was the very first batch of girls to be there! \o/ met up with ninja_starshine and both of us were so nervous lol. at 11.30 this batch of girls just started running and we were all like “waaaat? why are they running!?” but we all just started running and all the tourists there were just staring at us. i bet they thought we were crazy or something roflmao. met my friend who just came out of the skytrain when we arrived at the doors, waiting for the next train to come while confirming that they’d be arriving at terminal 3. then we all squeezed into one train and when i got out of the train it was super funny because there was this auntie going “aiyo, aiyo…”
we ran out and it was like a stampede! there were still tourists staring at us lol. then it was so cute because we queued in two rows from the railings and the security came with barricades and told us 10000 times that day not to push the barricades and not to try and touch the boys.
met pikasu and x_justifymylove there too! :D we waited for 2 hours at t3 before seeing the boys? many false alarms, it was quite annoying hearing people scream when we couldn’t see anything. oh, there were so many people wearing cute shirts! like a-nation shirts, that “we love jj” shirt that i want so much, miroticon shirts, they all looked so nice ;; i personally was wearing a t-shirt with two cartoon elephants on it because jaejoong likes them! hehe. 8D
so at about 1:30pm, the boys finally came out and i was like “omg omg omg” and i held my camera out and i got a clearrrr fancam of the boys’ faces! and it was batshit crazy. after i got a shot i ran out of the airport but didn’t manage to see them again. my friend and i ran for a cab and told the driver “uncle uncle can you follow the yellow cab in front?!?” and the driver was going all “wahhh what happen??! who’s here?” he was funny.
we reached the hotel and we saw this big group of fangirls standing outside. after a while, the boys drove in and i tried to get a fancam but i failed. they looked really nice though, and jaejoong was so tall and he looked so good. kekeke.
so my friend and i just walked around city hall. then we decided to take the risk and go up the escalator to the convention centre even though they said it was strictly for function guests only. and i saw silverlaces who was sitting there with her friends! 8D so we just started talking and camped there, waiting for the boys to come out of the door. at 3+, security guards came and chased us away so we just tried to look inconspicuous by walking and waiting around. but at 4+ news came that the boys were already in the room :/
then we waited outside the room with some other fans (about 10 of them?) and i got the chance to see presscon photos! jaejae was so cute and shy hehe. so was su! :’) yoochun looked really nice though, with his hair tied up and whatnot ♥
we decided to camp at the entrance, but didn’t get to see the boys in the end, so we just hired a cab to the expo.
(okay, the proper fanaccount starts here! :>)
so we reached the expo and we went to collect all my fangoods! when we were collecting from singaporetvxq we saw this long queue and we didn’t know what it was for lmao. then we realized that it was the queue to get in and we thought that we were going to die because our spot in the queue just went all the way to the road. it was so, so hot there :( oh, and i wrote my letter to jaejae (in english, no doubt, i don’t know korean sobs) while standing lmao. and it contained all my feelings towards him. i gave him a pack of ‘sticky’s that said thank you ♥
at 8.10 the queue FINALLY started moving and we were in the hall at 8.40 i think? we sat at different categories, i was at a4 :)
took pictures of the screen that said ‘JYJ The Beginning’ and talked to another cassie who was there.
okay so. after we all got seated, we waited in anticipation for the boys to appear on stage.
the lights were turned off and we literally stared at the stage. i turned my head back though, and was so touched to see the red ocean for the boys.
then the starting video came on and it was crazy, we were all screaming.
when the music first started i think everyone just went nuts, we all screamed our heads off! the boys appeared on stage and they were all in white, jaejae and chun were in white suits, su in a sleeveless white… top? i have no idea what to call it, lololol the back of it was just ‘hole-y’!
(anyway, i had binoculars with me. 8D;;)
the kind of feeling when they appeared on stage was just so overwhelming. the kind of joy and love that exploded inside of me, i really- there’s no way to describe it fully. it was like a dream fulfilled, a wish finally come true. it was so, so amazing seeing them and i just, i love them so much. it’s that kind of feeling when you see the people you’ve been thinking of night and day but can’t see them, and you finally, finally do. these boys, they make me so happy.
‘empty’ was fucking amazing. yoochun sounded totally gq when he went “girl i swearrr” and the fans were all screaming and waving their lightsticks. junsu sounded awesome then he started singing his part, like really awesome. and jaejae was fantastic during his lines of “girl because your heart is empty”! the entire song was just brilliant seriously i loved it so much. especially when they were doing the hip thrust move, everyone was just so hyped up. my favourite part of the song is the “let it go let it go let it go let it go” bit because the dance moves there are so damn cute! \w/ /squishes the boys
then they sang ‘be the one’. the boys danced so well, really and it was so nice watching them dance. the moves were really cool and it was just wowwww. jaejae danced really well too! after this was ‘be my girl’. oh gosh they looked so nice with the mic stands and they were also dancing to this. it was fantastic. i remember seeing jae take his mic out from the stand and singing with his hand on the stand, if you get what i mean, he looked so good (through my binoculars lmao) and ngh it was whoa sexy, the whole thing.
interview taimz! junsu’s greeting was so generic lol. he said something along the lines of “i’m jyj’s kim junsu, it’s nice to meet you, please take good care of me. thank you!”. and omgggggg jaejoong-ah! it was insane. i went insane. he said “HI HOW ARE YOU? I’M JAEJAE!” and we all erupted in screams, it was crazy. he sounded so adorbs when he said it and i loved it even more personally because (as you can see from above) i call him jaejae in sekrit hehehe so i was going all crazy. then yoochun’s greeting was cute too! i can’t really remember what he said (lol i’m senile like u_knowiloveyou) but he said something like “hi it’s my first time in singapore. i’m mickaay.” lolol he sounded so greasy when he said it but i loved him, hahaha mickaay. the host said something like “and i’m minnie! hahah joking” and i went - -“ i think yoochun’d have been a little offended, it is his name after all. :/
the host started asking questions and the boys were all so quiet :( i wanted jaejae to speak more but he kept gesturing to junsu and yoochun to answer the questions. he sounded really tired and his voice was lower than usual which made me a little worried ngl. (the next part’s going to be a little messed up because i can’t remember the questions so i’m just going to talk about them the way i listed them down!) junsu danced to ‘be my girl’ (yoochun suggested the song) while jaechun sang to it~ jaejae kept doing the following things: playing with his jacket (adjusting it looking like he was going to take it off hahaha and we screamed every time he did it \o/), using his pinky to push his fringe back a bit (seriously, baby, you keep touching it! lmao it’s his habit but it’s so cute, don’t you just love his hair ;; thegodofhair lolol) and he smiled shyly at certain times.
they answered the questions and yoochun spoke in english! it was totally understandable and wasn’t as bad as i thought it would be and his accent was totally sexy. seriously. /dies. jaejae said that it felt so surreal that kanye was going to work with them until he saw kanye in person. (just like me feeling that it was surreal that i was going to see them until i really did ;;)
one memorable question was when the host asked where all the fans were from or how the boys felt about the fans and yoochun said "when i first saw all the fans i was like wowwww." jaejae shouted “KOREAAAA” and everyone just screamed.
host: oh, so everyone’s from korea now?
another was when they were asked about their ideal types. junsu facepalmed roflmao. jaejae was being all hesitant to answer and he was being shy and giggling while covering his mouth - signature laugh pose (and i saw it in person omg dying). he paused for a long while before answering “pretty hands” and the host kept asking about outer appearances and stuff like that until he awkwardly said that it didn’t matter as long as she likes him. (who wouldn’t like you, baby!?) (and pikasu told me she shouted yunho which led to the whole VIP section around her shouting yunho too and jaejoong giggled hehehehe 8D)
then we gave a “surprise” to the boys. (lol fail surprise, you’ll see why!)
fans: annyeonghasaeyo!
yoochun: sorry what was that? /cornfuzed
fans: ANNYEONGHASAEYO!!
yoochun: hiii! (omg hahaa so cute)
fans: saranghaeyo, jaejoong, yoochun, junsu!!
yoochun: saranghaeyo, jaejoong... yoochun, junsu? (while pointing to each of them when he said their names lmao jaejae was giggling i think)
then we tried to sing ‘ayyy girl’.
fans: AYYY GIRL... /fades away
yoochun: what?
host: they’re trying to sing you a song
yoochun: what kind of song is that? (LOL YOU FUNNY BOY)
and the host told the fans to sing along to the boys instead. so basically the only parts we could sing was the “AYYY GIRL” bit and they had to sing the whole chorus hahaha. but junsu was being so sweet, he was all “very good! wonderful!” complete with a thumbs-up sign. aww i love this boy ♥ ;;)
then the host said something about 5 being a special number and the boys looked kind of awkward. i think that was really insensitive, i mean, even junsu introduced himself as jyj’s kim junsu. their smiles were starting to look a little forced as well :/
honestly, i was spazzing my head off last night but only because i saw these boys in person, not only on my television or computer. but then when i came home i thought about it and jaejae was so quiet during the showcase, his smiles looked forced and he sounded so tired, so unhappy. i was wondering why he didn't speak much or didn't answer more questions than he did when he kept gesturing to junsu or yoochun to speak. i was there for all three, but i focused on him and i felt so... upset that he didn't speak and that he was just moody all the time. i felt it, i felt his sadness. i saw fancams of the presscon and talkshow in bangkok and he was so bubbly and dorky and talktative and he was smiling so beautifully - like his usual self but he looked so reluctant to speak during the singapore showcase. omichan92 and i were talking about it on her journal and her friend said that with him, everything is written on his face and in all honesty, he looked happy only for a few minutes of the showcase and he looked exhausted. he lost a lot of weight and his eyebags were huge, it broke my heart seeing him like this - so tired, so upset. if you know me, you’ll know that all i want is for him to be happy, really and seeing him being unhappy at the showcase in singapore, where i live, when he’s happy everywhere else, i am so, so upset.
okay sadness aside. next was chajatta from sungkyunkwan scandal’s ost and people were chanting their names! it was so pretty because we were waving our lightsticks and we sang the “saranghae nol saranghae” bit with them. it was amazing, hearing them sing in korean live. i was going all “you’re singing in korean. sobs. ;;” this is where they started and this is where they will live. their voices were brilliant.
a video was showed, interviewing the boys. i teared up a little because they were so real in it. junsu said that he was living his dream, jaejae said that he wants to sing with other members, in a group and that he knows that he can’t be a singer forever, so he wants to do whatever he wants to accomplish while he can. yoochun said that they were finally free to do whatever they want and now all they wish for is for this freedom to be sustained. razortv interviewed me while i was queueing outside and the first question the reporter asked me was “what is one question you would like to ask the boys if you had a chance to?” and i said, “i just want to ask them if they’re happy doing everything that they’re doing right now because every fan would want them to be happy.” yeah.
AYYY GIRL. OMGGGG SPAZZES. jaejae was just dancing super fluidly and he looked so good, it was amazing. amazing. and the jacket move was just whoaaaa sexy. sobs he’s so flawless idek what to say. people started raising their “keep in mind that i love u” papers and i did, too! ♥ (but according to pikasu su had a solemn face when he saw the signs :() ALL THREE WERE AMAZING DANCING TO THE SONG. and chun rapped parts of the song and it was totally awesome because i was singing along and i was going out of tune but i didn’t care anymore i was just AYYYY GIRL TRIED TO MAKE YOU MY BABY. it was totally fun! i loved the entire performance.
and the ending bit hehehehe. 8D
junsu said the usual generic things, again, su-yah what’s up with your generic-ness the whole day, ahahha. he said “i’m very happy and i hope to see you again/i hope to come to singapore again!” so cute right. /squishes su. SURPRISINGLY i cannot recall what jaejae said sobs :( but yoochun just made me so happy! “we’re gonna see you again... next... year? for our concert? maaaaaaaaaaaaybe? (insert rabid fangirls’ screaming) we had a great time even though it was short. ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH! yeah.” he said ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH in such a greasy sexy voice nghhhh i love this boy.
the last song was empty (remix) and yoochun shouted “STAND UP!!!!!” we weren’t allowed to stand up due to the rules but no one cared anymore. we all just stood up and i couldn’t see the stage because i’m vertically challenged lmao but we started jumping and singing/shouting. then i ran to the front and squeezed to the second row and saw them all up close but i stared at jaejae dancing ;; he looked amazing up there. and it was so crazy we were all jumping up and down and shouting “LET IT GO LET IT GO LET IT GO LET IT GO” and they were going all “JUMP JUMP JUMP!!” OMGGGGG. ♥ (and i was in a dress lmao imagine how difficult it was to jump! dies) then jaesu knelt down at the corner of the stage during the music interlude and there was a dance special. near the end of the song, fire shot at the front of the stage and everyone exploded in screams but i felt the heat lmao. the last song, had to come to an end eventually and the boys ran up the steps, and they pointed to the sky, still moving to the beats of the song. junsu shouted kamsahamnida, jaejoong thank you and yoochun “I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!” and we all screamed “encore encore jyj jyj jyj jyj” but they didn’t come back out :(
overall it was an amazing experience seeing them live. jaejoong was beautiful, even more beautiful and flawless in real life. seeing him still feels surreal at this point in time. and so was hearing yoochun speak in fluent english in that sexy accent of his, and seeing junsu dance and sing. even though the host and translator were kind of fail, i enjoyed myself at the showcase because i actually saw these boys live. it used to be a dream, now it’s fulfilled and i can’t wait to see them again. they were born to be on stage. and i hope that the boys enjoyed themselves despite all the awkwardness and rather rude comments sometimes. and i hope that they feel how much singaporean cassies love them. even though i feel kind of disappointed that it was short and there were so many hiccups, i hope that they’ll come back soon. i need them. ;; they’re just so sweet even though i know they were unhappy and jaejae was still so squishy and adorbs despite being upset about things. i had tons of fun and it was great meeting up with you guys! ♥
i love these boys so much and i really, really loved everything they did. i just want them to be happy doing whatever they do and that is my greatest wish. i just want to thank yoochun-ah for affirming our faith - it was so surreal hearing him shout the exact words i say almost every day. lastly, i just want to say that jaejoong is probably the most amazing person in the world. (just let me give a little more love to my bias, okay? all five of my boys are amazing ♥) let’s believe in them together. forever five, forever love.
so sorry for the account being so boring and so jae-biased! and i apologise for being so bipolar ;; i know i sound really crazy stalking them and all but i didn’t scream my head off seeing them at the hotel or whatever so ;; no misunderstandings i hope? and i’m so sorry that there aren’t any videos or pictures, i do have some but my mom doesn’t know where the camera cable is so i can’t upload anything sobs i fail.
thank you so much for reading this! and if you want to take this out (i doubt anyone would, ahaha) please credit me properly! that’s all i ask :)
i love you all! and to everyone who reads my fics, i may be writing some stuff soon so do keep a lookout ♥
always keep the faith - because they are and we should, too. ♥
airport/stalking
i was at the airport from 7.30 am and i was the very first batch of girls to be there! \o/ met up with ninja_starshine and both of us were so nervous lol. at 11.30 this batch of girls just started running and we were all like “waaaat? why are they running!?” but we all just started running and all the tourists there were just staring at us. i bet they thought we were crazy or something roflmao. met my friend who just came out of the skytrain when we arrived at the doors, waiting for the next train to come while confirming that they’d be arriving at terminal 3. then we all squeezed into one train and when i got out of the train it was super funny because there was this auntie going “aiyo, aiyo…”
we ran out and it was like a stampede! there were still tourists staring at us lol. then it was so cute because we queued in two rows from the railings and the security came with barricades and told us 10000 times that day not to push the barricades and not to try and touch the boys.
met pikasu and x_justifymylove there too! :D we waited for 2 hours at t3 before seeing the boys? many false alarms, it was quite annoying hearing people scream when we couldn’t see anything. oh, there were so many people wearing cute shirts! like a-nation shirts, that “we love jj” shirt that i want so much, miroticon shirts, they all looked so nice ;; i personally was wearing a t-shirt with two cartoon elephants on it because jaejoong likes them! hehe. 8D
so at about 1:30pm, the boys finally came out and i was like “omg omg omg” and i held my camera out and i got a clearrrr fancam of the boys’ faces! and it was batshit crazy. after i got a shot i ran out of the airport but didn’t manage to see them again. my friend and i ran for a cab and told the driver “uncle uncle can you follow the yellow cab in front?!?” and the driver was going all “wahhh what happen??! who’s here?” he was funny.
we reached the hotel and we saw this big group of fangirls standing outside. after a while, the boys drove in and i tried to get a fancam but i failed. they looked really nice though, and jaejoong was so tall and he looked so good. kekeke.
so my friend and i just walked around city hall. then we decided to take the risk and go up the escalator to the convention centre even though they said it was strictly for function guests only. and i saw silverlaces who was sitting there with her friends! 8D so we just started talking and camped there, waiting for the boys to come out of the door. at 3+, security guards came and chased us away so we just tried to look inconspicuous by walking and waiting around. but at 4+ news came that the boys were already in the room :/
then we waited outside the room with some other fans (about 10 of them?) and i got the chance to see presscon photos! jaejae was so cute and shy hehe. so was su! :’) yoochun looked really nice though, with his hair tied up and whatnot ♥
we decided to camp at the entrance, but didn’t get to see the boys in the end, so we just hired a cab to the expo.
(okay, the proper fanaccount starts here! :>)
so we reached the expo and we went to collect all my fangoods! when we were collecting from singaporetvxq we saw this long queue and we didn’t know what it was for lmao. then we realized that it was the queue to get in and we thought that we were going to die because our spot in the queue just went all the way to the road. it was so, so hot there :( oh, and i wrote my letter to jaejae (in english, no doubt, i don’t know korean sobs) while standing lmao. and it contained all my feelings towards him. i gave him a pack of ‘sticky’s that said thank you ♥
at 8.10 the queue FINALLY started moving and we were in the hall at 8.40 i think? we sat at different categories, i was at a4 :)
took pictures of the screen that said ‘JYJ The Beginning’ and talked to another cassie who was there.
okay so. after we all got seated, we waited in anticipation for the boys to appear on stage.
the lights were turned off and we literally stared at the stage. i turned my head back though, and was so touched to see the red ocean for the boys.
then the starting video came on and it was crazy, we were all screaming.
when the music first started i think everyone just went nuts, we all screamed our heads off! the boys appeared on stage and they were all in white, jaejae and chun were in white suits, su in a sleeveless white… top? i have no idea what to call it, lololol the back of it was just ‘hole-y’!
(anyway, i had binoculars with me. 8D;;)
the kind of feeling when they appeared on stage was just so overwhelming. the kind of joy and love that exploded inside of me, i really- there’s no way to describe it fully. it was like a dream fulfilled, a wish finally come true. it was so, so amazing seeing them and i just, i love them so much. it’s that kind of feeling when you see the people you’ve been thinking of night and day but can’t see them, and you finally, finally do. these boys, they make me so happy.
‘empty’ was fucking amazing. yoochun sounded totally gq when he went “girl i swearrr” and the fans were all screaming and waving their lightsticks. junsu sounded awesome then he started singing his part, like really awesome. and jaejae was fantastic during his lines of “girl because your heart is empty”! the entire song was just brilliant seriously i loved it so much. especially when they were doing the hip thrust move, everyone was just so hyped up. my favourite part of the song is the “let it go let it go let it go let it go” bit because the dance moves there are so damn cute! \w/ /squishes the boys
then they sang ‘be the one’. the boys danced so well, really and it was so nice watching them dance. the moves were really cool and it was just wowwww. jaejae danced really well too! after this was ‘be my girl’. oh gosh they looked so nice with the mic stands and they were also dancing to this. it was fantastic. i remember seeing jae take his mic out from the stand and singing with his hand on the stand, if you get what i mean, he looked so good (through my binoculars lmao) and ngh it was whoa sexy, the whole thing.
interview taimz! junsu’s greeting was so generic lol. he said something along the lines of “i’m jyj’s kim junsu, it’s nice to meet you, please take good care of me. thank you!”. and omgggggg jaejoong-ah! it was insane. i went insane. he said “HI HOW ARE YOU? I’M JAEJAE!” and we all erupted in screams, it was crazy. he sounded so adorbs when he said it and i loved it even more personally because (as you can see from above) i call him jaejae in sekrit hehehe so i was going all crazy. then yoochun’s greeting was cute too! i can’t really remember what he said (lol i’m senile like u_knowiloveyou) but he said something like “hi it’s my first time in singapore. i’m mickaay.” lolol he sounded so greasy when he said it but i loved him, hahaha mickaay. the host said something like “and i’m minnie! hahah joking” and i went - -“ i think yoochun’d have been a little offended, it is his name after all. :/
the host started asking questions and the boys were all so quiet :( i wanted jaejae to speak more but he kept gesturing to junsu and yoochun to answer the questions. he sounded really tired and his voice was lower than usual which made me a little worried ngl. (the next part’s going to be a little messed up because i can’t remember the questions so i’m just going to talk about them the way i listed them down!) junsu danced to ‘be my girl’ (yoochun suggested the song) while jaechun sang to it~ jaejae kept doing the following things: playing with his jacket (adjusting it looking like he was going to take it off hahaha and we screamed every time he did it \o/), using his pinky to push his fringe back a bit (seriously, baby, you keep touching it! lmao it’s his habit but it’s so cute, don’t you just love his hair ;; thegodofhair lolol) and he smiled shyly at certain times.
they answered the questions and yoochun spoke in english! it was totally understandable and wasn’t as bad as i thought it would be and his accent was totally sexy. seriously. /dies. jaejae said that it felt so surreal that kanye was going to work with them until he saw kanye in person. (just like me feeling that it was surreal that i was going to see them until i really did ;;)
one memorable question was when the host asked where all the fans were from or how the boys felt about the fans and yoochun said "when i first saw all the fans i was like wowwww." jaejae shouted “KOREAAAA” and everyone just screamed.
host: oh, so everyone’s from korea now?
another was when they were asked about their ideal types. junsu facepalmed roflmao. jaejae was being all hesitant to answer and he was being shy and giggling while covering his mouth - signature laugh pose (and i saw it in person omg dying). he paused for a long while before answering “pretty hands” and the host kept asking about outer appearances and stuff like that until he awkwardly said that it didn’t matter as long as she likes him. (who wouldn’t like you, baby!?) (and pikasu told me she shouted yunho which led to the whole VIP section around her shouting yunho too and jaejoong giggled hehehehe 8D)
then we gave a “surprise” to the boys. (lol fail surprise, you’ll see why!)
fans: annyeonghasaeyo!
yoochun: sorry what was that? /cornfuzed
fans: ANNYEONGHASAEYO!!
yoochun: hiii! (omg hahaa so cute)
fans: saranghaeyo, jaejoong, yoochun, junsu!!
yoochun: saranghaeyo, jaejoong... yoochun, junsu? (while pointing to each of them when he said their names lmao jaejae was giggling i think)
then we tried to sing ‘ayyy girl’.
fans: AYYY GIRL... /fades away
yoochun: what?
host: they’re trying to sing you a song
yoochun: what kind of song is that? (LOL YOU FUNNY BOY)
and the host told the fans to sing along to the boys instead. so basically the only parts we could sing was the “AYYY GIRL” bit and they had to sing the whole chorus hahaha. but junsu was being so sweet, he was all “very good! wonderful!” complete with a thumbs-up sign. aww i love this boy ♥ ;;)
then the host said something about 5 being a special number and the boys looked kind of awkward. i think that was really insensitive, i mean, even junsu introduced himself as jyj’s kim junsu. their smiles were starting to look a little forced as well :/
honestly, i was spazzing my head off last night but only because i saw these boys in person, not only on my television or computer. but then when i came home i thought about it and jaejae was so quiet during the showcase, his smiles looked forced and he sounded so tired, so unhappy. i was wondering why he didn't speak much or didn't answer more questions than he did when he kept gesturing to junsu or yoochun to speak. i was there for all three, but i focused on him and i felt so... upset that he didn't speak and that he was just moody all the time. i felt it, i felt his sadness. i saw fancams of the presscon and talkshow in bangkok and he was so bubbly and dorky and talktative and he was smiling so beautifully - like his usual self but he looked so reluctant to speak during the singapore showcase. omichan92 and i were talking about it on her journal and her friend said that with him, everything is written on his face and in all honesty, he looked happy only for a few minutes of the showcase and he looked exhausted. he lost a lot of weight and his eyebags were huge, it broke my heart seeing him like this - so tired, so upset. if you know me, you’ll know that all i want is for him to be happy, really and seeing him being unhappy at the showcase in singapore, where i live, when he’s happy everywhere else, i am so, so upset.
okay sadness aside. next was chajatta from sungkyunkwan scandal’s ost and people were chanting their names! it was so pretty because we were waving our lightsticks and we sang the “saranghae nol saranghae” bit with them. it was amazing, hearing them sing in korean live. i was going all “you’re singing in korean. sobs. ;;” this is where they started and this is where they will live. their voices were brilliant.
a video was showed, interviewing the boys. i teared up a little because they were so real in it. junsu said that he was living his dream, jaejae said that he wants to sing with other members, in a group and that he knows that he can’t be a singer forever, so he wants to do whatever he wants to accomplish while he can. yoochun said that they were finally free to do whatever they want and now all they wish for is for this freedom to be sustained. razortv interviewed me while i was queueing outside and the first question the reporter asked me was “what is one question you would like to ask the boys if you had a chance to?” and i said, “i just want to ask them if they’re happy doing everything that they’re doing right now because every fan would want them to be happy.” yeah.
AYYY GIRL. OMGGGG SPAZZES. jaejae was just dancing super fluidly and he looked so good, it was amazing. amazing. and the jacket move was just whoaaaa sexy. sobs he’s so flawless idek what to say. people started raising their “keep in mind that i love u” papers and i did, too! ♥ (but according to pikasu su had a solemn face when he saw the signs :() ALL THREE WERE AMAZING DANCING TO THE SONG. and chun rapped parts of the song and it was totally awesome because i was singing along and i was going out of tune but i didn’t care anymore i was just AYYYY GIRL TRIED TO MAKE YOU MY BABY. it was totally fun! i loved the entire performance.
and the ending bit hehehehe. 8D
junsu said the usual generic things, again, su-yah what’s up with your generic-ness the whole day, ahahha. he said “i’m very happy and i hope to see you again/i hope to come to singapore again!” so cute right. /squishes su. SURPRISINGLY i cannot recall what jaejae said sobs :( but yoochun just made me so happy! “we’re gonna see you again... next... year? for our concert? maaaaaaaaaaaaybe? (insert rabid fangirls’ screaming) we had a great time even though it was short. ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH! yeah.” he said ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH in such a greasy sexy voice nghhhh i love this boy.
the last song was empty (remix) and yoochun shouted “STAND UP!!!!!” we weren’t allowed to stand up due to the rules but no one cared anymore. we all just stood up and i couldn’t see the stage because i’m vertically challenged lmao but we started jumping and singing/shouting. then i ran to the front and squeezed to the second row and saw them all up close but i stared at jaejae dancing ;; he looked amazing up there. and it was so crazy we were all jumping up and down and shouting “LET IT GO LET IT GO LET IT GO LET IT GO” and they were going all “JUMP JUMP JUMP!!” OMGGGGG. ♥ (and i was in a dress lmao imagine how difficult it was to jump! dies) then jaesu knelt down at the corner of the stage during the music interlude and there was a dance special. near the end of the song, fire shot at the front of the stage and everyone exploded in screams but i felt the heat lmao. the last song, had to come to an end eventually and the boys ran up the steps, and they pointed to the sky, still moving to the beats of the song. junsu shouted kamsahamnida, jaejoong thank you and yoochun “I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!” and we all screamed “encore encore jyj jyj jyj jyj” but they didn’t come back out :(
overall it was an amazing experience seeing them live. jaejoong was beautiful, even more beautiful and flawless in real life. seeing him still feels surreal at this point in time. and so was hearing yoochun speak in fluent english in that sexy accent of his, and seeing junsu dance and sing. even though the host and translator were kind of fail, i enjoyed myself at the showcase because i actually saw these boys live. it used to be a dream, now it’s fulfilled and i can’t wait to see them again. they were born to be on stage. and i hope that the boys enjoyed themselves despite all the awkwardness and rather rude comments sometimes. and i hope that they feel how much singaporean cassies love them. even though i feel kind of disappointed that it was short and there were so many hiccups, i hope that they’ll come back soon. i need them. ;; they’re just so sweet even though i know they were unhappy and jaejae was still so squishy and adorbs despite being upset about things. i had tons of fun and it was great meeting up with you guys! ♥
i love these boys so much and i really, really loved everything they did. i just want them to be happy doing whatever they do and that is my greatest wish. i just want to thank yoochun-ah for affirming our faith - it was so surreal hearing him shout the exact words i say almost every day. lastly, i just want to say that jaejoong is probably the most amazing person in the world. (just let me give a little more love to my bias, okay? all five of my boys are amazing ♥) let’s believe in them together. forever five, forever love.
so sorry for the account being so boring and so jae-biased! and i apologise for being so bipolar ;; i know i sound really crazy stalking them and all but i didn’t scream my head off seeing them at the hotel or whatever so ;; no misunderstandings i hope? and i’m so sorry that there aren’t any videos or pictures, i do have some but my mom doesn’t know where the camera cable is so i can’t upload anything sobs i fail.
thank you so much for reading this! and if you want to take this out (i doubt anyone would, ahaha) please credit me properly! that’s all i ask :)
i love you all! and to everyone who reads my fics, i may be writing some stuff soon so do keep a lookout ♥
always keep the faith - because they are and we should, too. ♥