Questionaire
What is your current state of mind?
Pensive.
What is your idea of perfect happiness?
Not having a care in the world. No troubles, no responsibilities; that’s why perfect happiness is impossible.
What is your greatest fear?
Failure: disappointing others’ expectations of me and disappointing my own expectation of me.
What is your greatest extravagance?
Cheap jewelry that tarnishes after a lot of wear.
What do you consider the most overrated virtue?
Justice.
What do you dislike most about your appearance?
I would like to possibly lose some weight around the thigh area, midsection area, and upper arm area. That would be nice.
Which words or phrases do you most overuse?
I don’t really have a catchphrase. I guess I have a very undistinguished vocabulary.
When and where were you happiest?
When I’m with my friends, forgetting about all of the bad times and just focusing on the here and now. The first moment to come to mind like that was an All Time Low concert in the City. We just danced and sang along and shared this unexplainable bond through our favorite band.
Which talent would you like to have?
I have always wanted to learn to cook. For some reason, even though recipes explain everything for you, I just have trouble following them. I think a chef needs technique, just like a writer does, that only comes from experience or a teacher.
What is your most treasured possession?
I treasure a lot of things. I treasure the laptop I use (that belongs to my brother) since all of my writing since elementary school is stored on it. I treasure my iPod because music is such a large part of my life. But my most treasured possession? Probably my grandmother’s and mother’s jewelry. They mean a lot to me and I feel like not taking perfect care of their belongings would be like insulting them in a large way.
What is your most marked characteristic?
Being a workaholic. My oldest brother always calls me a dork and my mother and other brother always comment on my work ethic, my responsibility, my determination, etc.
What is your greatest regret?
I feel like I prevent myself from having fun. For example, although I find that my extensive work ethics are amendable, I feel like they sometimes keep me from having fun. Instead of going to a party, I might stay home and take it easy if I have a big test the next day. I might not go to a drinking party with all my friends because I don’t want to upset the relationship between my mother and me. I just want to let loose one day, but I’m scared I’ll regret what happens afterwards. I regret being overcautious about things that seem so wrong, yet so right.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
What I say to people-I guess my behavior around them in general. I sometimes have this feeling in the back of my head, like I don’t belong, like I’m awkward and different from everyone else. (I know I have a habit of saying something the wrong way so it sounds like the opposite of what I really mean (like an insult instead of a compliment or a statement)).
If you could change one thing about your family, what would it be?
We’ve all been through a lot, so I think I would make everyone more willing to see a therapist and take an anti-depressant and be more acceptable to moving on.
On what occasion do you lie?
Right now, I’m a high school student, but I’m already earning credits for college.
What do you consider your greatest achievement?
That’s a tough one. I have so many smaller achievements to add up that just make me who I am. I wouldn’t consider any one achievement the greatest because they all just point me in the right direction, to success in life.
What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?
A deep hole of depression, from which it is hard to climb out. There’s no desire to do things I love, no reason to do anything. I just feel like staying in my room all day by myself. It’s lonely and miserable, but there are times I feel like I deserve it and times where I just don’t have the energy or the want.
What is your favorite occupation?
I would love to be an amazing baker (though I’m mediocre at baking). I would love to make extravagant, custom-design cakes and own a bakery. In my amazing bakery, I would have a small card shop with cards I hand-make (which I love to do). I love watching those Food Network cake shows (Ace of Cakes, Cake Boss) and looking at their extravagant cakes. I’d love to do that.
Who are your favorite writers?
That’s tough. I have favorite fiction authors, but I also admire authors from centuries before who set the precedent for writers today, who although might not be my favorite, they inspired the future authors that I love. I admire Shakespeare for many of his plays (my favorites being Romeo and Juliet and Taming of the Shrew). There are so many comparisons to Romeo and Juliet that it’s remarkable to have someone referencing your work centuries later, especially in such good taste. I have a few favorite poets, such as Edgar Allan Poe and Robert Frost. My current favorite novels were written by Laurie Halse Anderson (the author of Twisted and Speak) and Sarah Dessen (who wrote The Truth About Forever and other good romance-fiction novels).
Who is your favorite hero of fiction?
I don’t really have a favorite hero of fiction. I admire Atticus Finch (having read To Kill A Mockingbird last year in fine detail), but I don’t think he would be my favorite hero. Honestly, I love Sirius Black from Harry Potter. He tries so hard to come back into Harry’s life after so long and be the father figure Harry hardly ever had. I think that’s a hard job, and he winds up dying because of it.
Who are your heroes in real life?
My mother is definitely my rolemodel and hero. I look up to her and I hope to have many of her traits in the future. Without her, I honestly don’t think I would have survived this far, both emotionally and physically.
What is it that you most dislike?
Out of everything? I dislike spinach, I dislike bees, I dislike the dust in my room that won’t clean itself, but the thing I dislike most is probably the spitefulness and brutality of people, whether they realize it or not. I dislike people not thinking and saying hurtful things, but the worst is when they say or do things maliciously.
What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
The fact that I continuously speak before thinking. It sometimes gets me into minor trouble, but I don’t want it to be around when it could cause major problems.
What is the trait you most deplore in others?
Being inconsiderate. I find it rude and insulting.
Which living person do you most admire?
My mother, because she has all of the desirable qualities I could ask for but enough flaws to be real.
Which living person do you most despise?
My father.
What or who is the greatest love of your life?
My family (my mother, two brothers, and all of my close relatives and family friends). I’m very proud of how far we’ve all come and I will never stop loving them.
What do you most value in your friends?
The responsibility they uphold of being a friend. If I need to vent, I want someone to listen. If I need to just forget about everything and go out, I need a friend to be my partner in crime. Just someone to be there for me.
What is the quality you most like in a man?
Appearance-wise, I love expressive eyes. Personality-wise, I simply want someone who understands me.
What is the quality you most like in a woman?
My best friends are women, and I think that’s because I can relate to them easily. I like being able to relate to someone; I immediately feel closer if we’ve had similar experiences.
What is your motto?
A motto? Well, there are things I often tell myself, like “Get up off the bed, it’s time for school” and “You have to do schoolwork first, you can go on the computer later.” For an actual motto, I guess it’s that my hard work will pay off. I honestly don’t know if it will or not, but I tell myself that so I don’t regret all of my time and effort.
Which historical figure do you most identify with?
For some reason, I just really like Dorothea Dix. She was an advocate for those with disabilities, making people realize that they shouldn’t be put in a terrible jail cell because of genetics they cannot control, especially since they did nothing wrong. I think it’s great to find something you believe is wrong, then work at it to make it better, especially for such a large group of people. I think we share work ethics and determination, and some day, I hope to make a difference in the world. I don’t know how big or small, or what I will change, but I hope to improve the world somewhat before I die.
How would you like to die?
In my sleep, beside my husband or whomever I’m in love with. I can’t picture a better death than dying painlessly, unknowingly, and calmly with your lover by your side.
If you were to die and come back as a person or thing, what do you think it would be?
I’ve always wanted to come back as a house pet, but only to someone who would really appreciate me. Still, I think after I die, I would want to help people. Maybe I would be a pet to a lonely old woman who needs a companion, or a lovable dog to befriend the lonely high school outcast.
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