I'm not going to this funeral. I can't.
I want to be there for my family, for Donna and her kids, but I just can't.
I can't handle going through this again, not so soon.

I will be okay.
I will be okay.
I will be okay.

I've got a chance at a real job ( Read more... )

Just the back and forth.
Sigh.
Everything will be okay. If it isn't then I won't know any better anyways.
It's just life.

This settles it, I'm spending my first paycheck from my new job throwing myself out of an airplane.

Looking back at my journals from 2010. 2011. 2012. You really start seeing the rises and falls. The ups and downs, the waves, the patterns. All of the thoughts and passions and emotions ( Read more... )

Why is it
now that I don't need the approval of everyone
why is it that now
it's so much easier for me
to just hate everyone that I don't love?

-Carrots are amazingly easy to grow. Put seeds 1/2 into the ground in a lot of sun, give them some water. They get tall and dense. Young carrots are slightly sweet and quite mild, very lovely ( Read more... )

God
Fuck

Why is everyone getting pregnant

Ladies, just take your damn birth control
Jeez

Ever so slowly
Falling off the map.
Maybe by this time next year,
I'll be long gone
And no one will remember me.

Time to re-learn introspection.
Time to resume awareness.

Enough games.

Memoirs of my first solo adventure, age 22. I drove to New Orleans for Voodoo Festival! The trip down was pleasant--Stephen had downloaded a bunch of podcasts onto my phone so that I could learn things while I drove. After navigating the perilously potholed streets of New Orleans, I parked outside of Murk's house on Carondelet and grabbed the first ( Read more... )