I wish I was dead.

Why?

Finding out more stuff. No way to even talk about it, and even if i did another lie would come to cover it. There is no way to the truth.

Going to a party. I need to not hurt. I hope getting completely wasted will help.

Loving someone really sucks.

Of all pain, the greatest pain,
Is to love, and to love in vain.
- George Granville

Why do I do this to myself? I know the situation, and I know I'll never get what I need from it. Still I persist in loving him, and staying because I do. He's now waiting for me to either leave him first or fuck up majorly so he doesn't have to feel bad about breaking up with me again. And yet, when I offer to leave and find somewhere else to stay ( Read more... )

Momocon was a complete bust. Back in Sburg though, if anyone wants to know.

...but today was an amazing day. At least one part of it.

I just really wish.....during that moment......I could have known that he felt like I did.


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I think I'm perfectly justified in being upset with my boyfriend going to his ex-girlfriend's birthday party, when said ex is the person he talks shit about me to the most. And since the last party he went to with an ex he proved he isn't trustworthy ( Read more... )

Fuck everything.

http://tinyurl.com/be4a5o

I wonder how long it takes to learn to do this.

And before someone debates it's authenticity, I just want to say I don't care if it's real or not. It's more impressive if it is, and it's just a pretty interesting art film if it's not.