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[moonshadow3561]

Comforted. I just want to be comforted. Like a five year old who's scraped her knee. I just want things to be ok. Why can't I feel happy anymore? Have I screwed myself up beyond repair? And why do I continue to do so? I want so badly to be ok so why don't I see any benefits yet? Where is the power of the mind? Why can't I pull myself

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[moviestr_20]

You stated that you feel like you're missing something, could it be perhaps that you feel that way because the void you're feeling is the love for yourself? When you value yourself and love yourself inside and out...you will feel a whole lot better and for some reason it completes you---or so says my T (I'm stating what she is telling me). I'm working on it myself and I hope that in time you will love yourself and be happy with who you are, what you do, and where you are in life.
much love,
jen

[eternitye]

*hug*
i know how you feel. sometimes all the self-analization and logic and deep thinking is just... worthless, cause all i really want is to curl up in bed next to someone and be fucking COMFORTED, no questions asked

i don't know how to fill that void, because food and alcohol and sex and partying and all that just isn't doing it . i guess it comes from being inately satisfied with oneself, which for both you and me seems impossible. i wish i knew how to do it.

i know i've been flaking out on you recently, but i really want to commit to a weekend, or even couple days during the week, to come visit you. we could both benefit from some quality time together... sometime in june? let me know and i will request off and this time actually get my ass together to come, i promise. i've been a hermit for too long.

hang in there... it will get better eventually. it HAS to, right..?

[moonshadow3561]

Ya know, that's such a good way to think of it. If I go IP, regardless of what happens, I'll still at least learn some new coping skills. Even if I relapse. At least I'll walk out of there with *something* to my advantage. And really...what's a couple weeks...

[flashybonz]

I think it is time to let go of everything negative in your life, and put this awful chapter in your treatment team's hands. You deserve so much more than spending your days in isolation...it's time to rejoin humanity!

I'm always around if you need to talk!

Nic ( stolenhope )