It's funny how when you think the past is in the past... it can always, and usualy does come back to haunt you. You see, I have receintly gotten in touch with an old friend of mine from highschool, Amanda. Not that thats a bad thing on it's own you see.. However, I found out she is still really good friends with my first real love... Brian ( Read more... )

Well Chad and I had a wonderful day off yesterday. Shower sex, lots of snuggling, we went for a nice long walk together and then spent the rest of the evening laughing over one of my computer games. Chad went out and got us stuff for dinner! What a great day ( Read more... )

Well as usual with my life, things are up right now, and more up than normal. That doesn't mean that everything is going perfectly and I'm on cloud 9 so to speak, but things feel... a bit more grounded, secure. Chad and I are going to be moving into OUR own place soon, with lots of room for both of our belongings, and still have my Big Ass TV! hehe ( Read more... )

*** Well I'm going to say this now, this was all venting, extream venting. I was so angry and depressed that I just wrote down whatever came into my mind. Going back and re reading it I realized that this isn't who I am, nor is it something I want to make myself out to be, because this angry person isn't me.. it's stress and depression ( Read more... )

Well I haven't updated in a while. Mainly because since last Saterday I've been at my new job. Which is awesome by the way! A lot of responcabilities I can tell you that much. But just awesome anyway! I'm about to walk out the door right now for my last day before the weekend. Which is awesome as well because I'm off Saterday and Sunday, and I can ( Read more... )

I'm getting ready for my job to start. I'm nervious and excited. Nervious because I've never done banking before and I'm afraid because I am a bit un easy about math that I'm going to make a complet fool of myself. But I'm excited because.. fuck! I got a job again ( Read more... )

I was on Yahoo Chats in the PlayStation room. Where someone said in the room" Hey Minja, the pic in your profile looks like the Princess from Shrek when she was in her ogre form ( Read more... )

Had another fight with Chad a few nights ago, big surprise... it ended better than expected even though Chad Colin and I stayed out until about 1 am... and stupid me forgot my damn cell phone in my car ( Read more... )

I think I'm going to have a disgussion with my shrink soon. My depression is getting seriously out of hand. Two suicide attempts, though know one really knows where or when and I'm not going to disclose that info anyway. and I keep thinking about doing it more... A continuing feeling that I'm not good enough... that nothing I do or try will work. ( Read more... )

Started out my morning with Chad doing everything in his power not to touch me when he was asleep. That was nice... Then about 11:30ish this morning I got a call from Crystal Willardson, Marty's mother, informing me that William B. Riley was dead, so ending Max's bloodlline. He died last night in Ireland of a major stroke... Of course I got off the ( Read more... )